it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

I've heard a thousand stories of what they think You're like but I've heard the tender whisper of love in the dead of night and You tell me that You're pleased and that I'm never alone Yellow peopleeee! Today is a rare day! It's a sunny Sunday. I've run (or jog. or crawl. whatever) and I've got a few minutes left to blog in a midday instead of the middle of the night. yay! seneng sendiri hahaha. So many things happened in the past 7 days.. But one thing that I wanna keep forever is the one that happened on Wednesday. It was on our weekly Menara Doa. Two things that keep me coming to Menara Doa is the realization that I will meet : 2. Dede Pardede HAHAHAHAHAH Siapakah Dede Pardede? Buka aja Instagram gw isinya foto dia semua hahaha. Kalo emaknya minta royalti sih gw gulung tikar naik getek balik Indo deh lol. Don't ask me why I love dede so much but I just do. Kemarin pas FA Core Kenny bilang kalo God asked her to observe how Ko...

This past week was not an easy one. But God is good all the times. As shared by Bu Dokter from Isaiah 55 8  The  Lord  says, “My thoughts are not like yours.      Your ways are not like mine. 9  Just as the heavens are higher than the earth,      so my ways are higher than your ways,      and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts. 10  “Rain and snow fall from the sky      and don’t return until they have watered the ground. Then the ground causes the plants to sprout and grow,      and they produce seeds for the farmer and food for people to eat. What we always wanted is to live in a safe place where there is no hurt or grief or sadness. But the fact is, while we're still living in this fallen world, rain and snow (or whatever kind of storm you're in) God allows them to happen for a purpose. After all.. God's thoughts are always, AL...

Yellow hello! There's so many things going on, I couldn't find a time (or niat) to sit down. So tonight, I tell myself, "STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND WRITE THOSE THINGS DOWN OR YOU MIGHT MISSED OUT YOUR OPPORTUNITY TO BLESSED OTHERS" Pheww. Sorry for caps. But really, there are lots of stuff I gotta write. Then come this movie and that movie and there goes my moments. It all comes down to making daily choices, really. ANYWAY. Tonight, just a few hours ago, the three of us ladies, were walking to our bus stops. Just now in the prayer tower, one of them prayed about this coming Valentine's Day and how some, well, many of the singles are getting 'worried' and in a 'hurry' to find someone, to the extent of ANYone before the day. I have another childhood story to tell. Err. Nothing to do with the above, but somehow related. Back then when I was in school, I envy those celebrating CNY. (Btw, gong xi gong xi and congrats buat yang menuai angp...

Yellow hello! The first TLG in 2016 was AWESOME! Awesome GOD!!! Personally, the best part was during doa jem 4. Ampun deh baru juga merem, doa, my heart whispered, "You're home." And He told me, "Yes. You are home." Gila deh. Gimana ga banjir.... Maap ya ci Beck tissuenya gw yang abisin wkwk. Ya gitu deh. I'm just super grateful for this little place where my soul is at home. I know that wherever I am, God is with me. But there is no place I'd rather be on a Saturday night.. And for that, I am forever grateful. God is good! Anyway. Today is not another curhat2an ga jelas dari gw wkwk. Today is about one person that has been the major influence in my life since day 1 : MAMA! Last Christmas I had a chance to spend most of my time with her, at home, nonton tv, belanja groceries ala emak2, jogging pagi sama Mupin, ke dokter check-up (baca curhatan gw sblmnya dah), kejebak macet parah di Bandung, beli martabak Boss (penting banget), curhat...

Yellow hello :) Yesterday was the first day back at work in 2016. Udah galau aja Minggu malem kemarin. A bit afraid to see gundukan email and kondisi tray yang (mungkin) overflowing. But that's the thing is it? MUNGKIN. Padahal belom tentu. So before I went to bed on that Sunday night I just prayed and have faith that God who helped David defeated Goliath, will help me to conquer my personal Goliath, too. EH TERNYATA BENER KAN. First day went smoooooth like banana smoothie bahaha. But that's not the thing I wanna share here. Jadi, hari ini gw agak ga enak body, jadi gw batal berenang bersama di Clementi. Gw jg ga lari malem ini. LOH LOH LOH. Kezia berenang sama lari?? Kalo kata si cicik, menanggapi gw berenang, "MARANATHA KE!" Bahahahhahaahahha. Segitunya youu. Buat yang kenal deket sama gw, semuanya sih kaget mayan ya. Gw sama olahraga itu kaya speaker sama tusuk gigi. Ga nyambung aja. Ya kalo diitung gembol2 barang sama mond...

Yellow hello!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS AWESOME PEOPLEE!! Blogging from my very own bedroom with si bandel Mupin sleeping right beside me. What more could I ask, really. Hahahhaa. I have lots of stories from our short-getaway. Epic moments. But I'll tell you later. Now I just want to bask in the glory of Jesus' amazing love. This is the kind of feeling that I just want to bottle up forever. And never let go. Okeh sebelum cerita, below is one song that has blessed me a lot (tears and all).  Enjoy ;) Okeh. Here goes. I have blogged a lot about this friend of mine. We've met in uni. (OMG it's been 7 years......) Have been praying for him for quite some times. (2 yrs? 3 yrs? ga inget.) Mulainya gw itu ga ngerti, kenapa gw musti temenan ama ini bocah. Gw ga bermaksud over-analyze stuff here, tp as I grew deeper in love with Christ, I found it harder and harder to talk to him. Gausah ngomongin curhat girly2 deh. Ngomongin hal biasa aja bisa jadi...

Tadi siang, seorang temen (sebut saja Budi) tau2 Line gw. It's a screen-shot of another friend's post in Path (sebut saja Mawar). Kata si Budi, "Mawar sudah tak sama lagi Kez." Ya intinya, si Mawar (rada malesin pake kode2, tp yaudah lah ya bear with me) ini adalah temen deketketket gw banget. Kalo dari segi karakter, dia itu bawang putih dan gw adalah onggokan bawang merah. Bukannya gw suka menyiksa yeh. Lebih kaya.. Dia itu tipikal menantu idaman dah. Yang bisa bikin mertua happy, suami betah di rumah, rajin berdoa, soleha, santun, sopan, rajin menabung, dll dll. Nah ya gw macam yang kebalikannya dia dah : aga2 seperti lelaki (ga takut kecoak, serangga, dll), bisa ganti bohlam sendiri, volume suara agak besar (apalagi kalo ketawa), dll yang mungkin bisa bkin mertua urut dada wkwkwkwkwkwk. Yah singkat cerita, gw ngobrol sm si Budi and I got it. People change. Pertanyaannya : ke arah MANA kamu berubah. Honestly, gw sedih dan gw merasa ...