it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

Disclaimer : This is not a love letter whatsoever. If you got something else better to do, well, go! Sod off!! (courtesy of Cal Lightman. LOL) Dear Friend, I thought about talking it out. But I may make a fool of my self. Or make a fool of you. So I decided to write it down thinking maybe you would read it. And if you don't, well, at least I've got it out from my system. So.. Here it goes. It's been couple of years since we first met. Vaguely remember those days, we were partners in crime. At least to me, you were. I saw myself in the past, and I barely remember how it felt. I think I've outgrown myself since then. And maybe the same things happen to you. Things happened. To you. To me. Life changed. People come. And go. You grew. But the thing is, we grew apart. Didn't we? I remember like it was yesterday. When I realized I couldn't hold on to your words. Not like before. Well, I thought friends are loyal to each other. They meant to share things. Share your up

Yesss, tomorrow I'll be having my first preliminary exam. The subject will be Management Accounting. I was tired of crunching numbers for few days nonstop. LOL. Not non-stop literally. I had my fair share of entertainment. Like doing my laundry, cooking or rather fried something and last, but not least, watching Lie to Me. Man, Lightman was genious. Is there any REAL person with such talent. However.. What I want to share here is.. I got some topics came up while I was punching calculator. Firstly I was going to write about our my boy-friends (friends that happen to be a boy, just making things clear) and their attitude towards each others. But after some thoughts this topic needs lots of elaboration and some attempt to hide sarcasm. And at this state, I don't think writing it would entertain my-exhausted-self. Let's keep it for the next posting, shall we? ;) So it happened when I was in the verge of ripping these papers to pieces. I was BORED and tired. And if there was a-

I. AM. borreeedddd! I never been this bored before, I swear! I'm tired of study. I don't have any good movie I haven't watched. I played my piano like hundred songs. I don't feel like reading. My point is, I don't know what to do. So I decided to upload some pics from my phones. Well, when I say random, I mean it. BEWARE! Of the randomness. HAHAHA. Okay, not funny. ___________________________________________________________ My Family Mom, Me, Dad I lovelovelove them! My best friend -slash- sister, Febe :) Can you tell that I was 4 years older than her? Taken when I was... 5? Any resemblance with the grown-up me now? LOL My baby sister! So cute and chubby! ...and now she's all grown up already. Time flies.. Have I told you, that I LOVE my sister so much? Above all, I really really miss them all :( __________________________________________ My Friends :) This is my beloved housemates/bestfriends. Well, when you're far away from home, your friend IS your family

Take out of your wasted honor Every little past frustration Take all your so-called problems, Better put them in quotations Say what you need to say [x8] Walking like a one man army Fighting with the shadows in your head Living up the same old moment Knowing you'd be better off instead, If you could only . . . Say what you need to say [x8] Have no fear for giving in Have no fear for giving over You'd better know that in the end Its better to say too much Than to never to say what you need to say again Even if your hands are shaking And your faith is broken Even as the eyes are closing Do it with a heart wide open ____________________________ I've been contemplating this song for quite some times. Once, I thought that dearest John Mayer here was so right. That this life is unpredictable. You'd never know what would happen tomorrow. Life is short. Too short. You wouldn't know where the end is. And due to the undeniable fact above, we should not miss opportunities out.

Back to Singapore already. Holiday's overrrrr. This time means no more slacking. I hope. LOL It's 3.39am. There were 2 things happening today. Both got me confused and somewhat questioning the whole 'destiny' thing. Let me get this clear, it's not about the consolidation hamper I haven't touch a bit but shld have been submitted in 2 days. Nor about the test that's coming up on the same day. I'm sure you got something better to do than hearing me grumbling about this particular lecturer, since I know MANY did already. LOL Cut to the story. The first one is about the.. same person I blog previously. The one I waved goodbye? Well.. I know he said 'keep in touch' but I thought it would be some kind of 'a-friendly-but-rarely' chat. So I was a bit taken aback when he sent instant messages. It's not like I wasn't happy about it. I was. I am. But I was also confused. I thought that day he left was the end, you know. And now.. I don't

I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life, tell me how's your family I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier than ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why 'Cause the last time you saw me Still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I go back to December all the time These days I haven't been sleeping Staying up playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call And I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side and Realized I loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days w