it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

“At the end of your resources, you’ll find Mine.” The Lord spoke to me gently when I had to withdraw from my emergency fund savings. It was earlier this year. But I realized this journey begins much earlier in my life. I was an accountant and I’m really good at juggling numbers. Making them even. Balanced. But when it comes to managing my own finance, I failed. Big times. It’s either I splurged, and of course I justified myself : Hey, you earned this. Celebrate yourself! I mean, of course, if you turned towards the culture, you would find voices that agrees with your dysfunctions LOL. But deep down, I knew it’s not right. On the other hand, when my savings dwindled under a certain level that I wanted to maintain, I would turn to another extreme, I became so.. Ungenerous. Stingy. I would be so calculative, not just to people, but to myself, too. So 2 years ago, God showed me the root cause of this struggle : “Ke, all of your life, you’ve seen your early father did not cover you in this