it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

See, I've told you December is SOMETHING ELSE! I've kinda sorta dreaded last weekend before Friday even came in to view. Back to back scheduled event/practices/etc. I just prayed for supernatural strength for Saturday and Sunday. Limited rest, but unlimited supply of mental and physical power, please Dad! Lol. What I never expected was.. That particular weekend was simply one of the most memorable weekend in 2017. WEW! WHY SO GOOD, GOD??? So one of the MAJOR thing was the 10th year anniversary of Development Program. https://www.development.org.sg/  for more info on the program, TLG Band was asked to perform a few songs and to accompany the 2 Indo artists singing 5 songs. The challenge was we never got to play any dangdut before WKWKWKWK. And to find time/room slot for practicing was particularly SUPER-DIFFICULT. The church was under maintenance and December was the busiest month for various events practices. Well. Anyways. D-day came.  

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S EXACTLY 31 DAYS TO 2018!!!!!! Whoa if I could press the pause button for a while here.. So, last week my sister shared her Fuse activity in our Line group. They're discussing 3 points below: 1. What do you learn in 2017 in walking with Jesus? 2. Where is Jesus in your story? 3. What do you plan to do in 2018 in walking with Jesus? .......such questions. So before I shared my answer, here's what Febe has written. 1. I've learned to trust God 100%. I declare, "Yes God. I wanna do it." And this left me in what the world would call "stage of uncertainty" but I believe it is so certain in God's eyes. Because I believe He meant what He did. And His plans are always perfect. This is the most significant year because I've declared YES to His processes. 2. Although it hurts and it's hard, Jesus's role in my journey : He is my best friend, my strong tower, my source of joy and strength

When I am afraid, I put my trust in You. Psalm 56:3 Ok so. The roller coaster ride game is still going strong. (Meaning I'm still alive and well in this journey with God. So. Yeah wkwk) Last week, around this time of day. I was in the office, working. Just another normal day. When out of nowhere, I had this uneasy feeling which urged me to 'recharged'. When this kind of thing happens, I usually go for the Podcasts, or simply plugging myself to songs, or scrolling through some articles. So I've decided to read through my daily devotion. And what I've read gripped my heart and took hold of my full attention that God was about to reveal His heart out. And yes. Wow. I spared you the detail for some other day when I can fully SHOUT IT OUT FROM THE ROOFTOP. But yes. He has just made a promise. Again. Not just a promise. It's an assurance I never thought I needed. That what He has begun will be made to pass. It was so.. out of nowhere. So un

"But how if You're not the first, God? How if he came in between us?" "That is the risk I'm willing to take... Because I love you." More than 3 months has passed since the day I said yes. I mean to R, not God. Hahaahaha. Because it feels like He has challenged me so many times this past few months, I lost count on how many times I gotta grit my teeth and decided : YES. Ok God. Yes. The thing about this journey with God.. It's not always rainbows and unicorns. But it's going to be worth every tears. And throughout this 3 months, God has taught me a few things from this relationship that I NEVER IMAGINE I would ever feel/do/experience. Ever. But hey, if God could use the murkiest water and turn it into the best wine, well. Wine it is! The first month was like a whirlwind. Love struck lol. I got caught up in this 'new thing.' I smiled nonstop. Looking forward for 6PM (more than the usual lol) because I knew who

…looking back I was wondering why I was so brave back then lol. I just re-read what I wrote 3 months ago. THREE MONTHS! Can't believe it's been 3 months! Can't believe it's the last trimester of 2017! So many things had happened in the short 3 months.. I kinda lost count on the happenings. Milestones! First ministry trip. First birthday out of SG (Indo doesn't count lol). First (and hopefully LAST) experience of 'boyfriend-does-my-make-up challenge' wkwkwkwkwkwk. The thing is, not all milestones can be seen easily. For me, mostly are hidden. Some are even hidden from myself. It takes God to do the unrevealing and unveiling of the heart. And not everything He unearthed from the soil of my heart are beautiful things. Some are downright chaotic and messy. But that's how great the Father's love for us, isn't it? He gave up the grandness of heaven so we could experience this Love. Such Love.. And I assure you. No amount of love co

“I know this is too fast. And please don’t ask me why, because I don’t have the answer. I don’t know why.” “I won’t ask you why. Because I know.. It’s God.”   Wkwkwkwkwwkwkwkwkww duh supershy padahal biasanya ga tau malu. I’m still getting used to this. But those who viewed our IG feed and saw the pic posted in FB would know what this is all about. The Promise of God. It’s been there, mentioned the wholeee time in my earlier posts, yet unnamed. I’ll try to recall the whole story. Some details would be lost in translation because there are wayyyy TOO MANY. Haha. Fyi. I’VE BEEN WAITING SOOO LOOOONG TO SHOUT THIS OUT LOUD. So, here goes. Last Sunday, R asked me out to dinner. A few days before, he’s mentioned this fancy place and I calmly (I think) said, “Yes, yes why not” while inside I was [insert screaming emoji here] knowing that this is not a normal dining experience. OMG. I was so glad it’s through a text message, otherwise he would see me SCREAM