it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S EXACTLY 31 DAYS TO 2018!!!!!! Whoa if I could press the pause button for a while here.. So, last week my sister shared her Fuse activity in our Line group. They're discussing 3 points below: 1. What do you learn in 2017 in walking with Jesus? 2. Where is Jesus in your story? 3. What do you plan to do in 2018 in walking with Jesus? .......such questions. So before I shared my answer, here's what Febe has written. 1. I've learned to trust God 100%. I declare, "Yes God. I wanna do it." And this left me in what the world would call "stage of uncertainty" but I believe it is so certain in God's eyes. Because I believe He meant what He did. And His plans are always perfect. This is the most significant year because I've declared YES to His processes. 2. Although it hurts and it's hard, Jesus's role in my journey : He is my best friend, my strong tower, my source of joy and strength

When I am afraid, I put my trust in You. Psalm 56:3 Ok so. The roller coaster ride game is still going strong. (Meaning I'm still alive and well in this journey with God. So. Yeah wkwk) Last week, around this time of day. I was in the office, working. Just another normal day. When out of nowhere, I had this uneasy feeling which urged me to 'recharged'. When this kind of thing happens, I usually go for the Podcasts, or simply plugging myself to songs, or scrolling through some articles. So I've decided to read through my daily devotion. And what I've read gripped my heart and took hold of my full attention that God was about to reveal His heart out. And yes. Wow. I spared you the detail for some other day when I can fully SHOUT IT OUT FROM THE ROOFTOP. But yes. He has just made a promise. Again. Not just a promise. It's an assurance I never thought I needed. That what He has begun will be made to pass. It was so.. out of nowhere. So un

"But how if You're not the first, God? How if he came in between us?" "That is the risk I'm willing to take... Because I love you." More than 3 months has passed since the day I said yes. I mean to R, not God. Hahaahaha. Because it feels like He has challenged me so many times this past few months, I lost count on how many times I gotta grit my teeth and decided : YES. Ok God. Yes. The thing about this journey with God.. It's not always rainbows and unicorns. But it's going to be worth every tears. And throughout this 3 months, God has taught me a few things from this relationship that I NEVER IMAGINE I would ever feel/do/experience. Ever. But hey, if God could use the murkiest water and turn it into the best wine, well. Wine it is! The first month was like a whirlwind. Love struck lol. I got caught up in this 'new thing.' I smiled nonstop. Looking forward for 6PM (more than the usual lol) because I knew who