it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

Dear Nana, How long has it been? Two months? I'm not good with dates. Lol. I miss your bits and pieces. Like when I see something funny on my way to the office, I feel like nudging you because sometimes you see, but you don't really 'see' it. Or when we go for lunch on Moh. Sultan and I only can choose between bakut or that pig leg *sigh Or when I'm thinking of buying the salted sotong but of course it's too big a portion for one. And nobody seems to pick out all veggies and raisins ask me to eat the 'waste' lol I miss your 'quirkiness' which comes from your lack or perceptiveness towards your surroundings. I miss telling you my stories. The happy ones, the funny ones, the sad ones, the unimportant ones. I miss you when I'm on the long trip by 51 every Friday. Even more when I'm on my way home by taxi. Because I cannot share the fare!! Lol. I even miss your 'morning sneezes' lol. And please noted tha

Yes, today I'd like to share a bit of my opinion on this one word that most people dislikes. "Goodbye" On my way to the Church today, I was informed that my poodle has just passed away. Well, she's been around 13 years anyway. A long, healthy life, for a dog. She watched me going to school and back since I was in elementary. Goodbye Ciki. Thanks for letting us hug you whenever we want. You'll be missed, little one. I also notice that these days, I keep seeing people going back for good. Some went back to their hometown, others going abroad someplace else. Some pursuing further studies, others looking for a job, or a better one. Well, I imagine many other reasons. You might be going because you decided it is for a greater good, like chasing your dream of a better future, better education, better environment, better chance to be with your loved one/s. You might be forced to go. Maybe by your parents, by the situation that cannot be

I was on my way home, thinking of.. Stuff :P I was a bit in a confusion, so I WhatsApp this one friend, and suddenly she's mentioning about chemistry. LOL. Long time never heard this term. I mean, not the Chemistry you learn on high school, mixing color liquids and atoms and all that things. This one happens between people which are not necessarily from two opposite genders. I'm really sure that you feel this 'chemistry' thingy before. Some experience it more that once. Some others could be more than a dozen times. Let say, you meet someone and after 5 minutes of talking, you find yourself telling stories you never tell anyone else. Or when you realize that you two have lots of things in common. Like hobbies, educational background, hometown, habits, or even trivial things like favorite brand of clothing, favorite movies, actors/actress you like best. Out of curiosity, I Googled it. Apparently, some people feel this 'chemistry' instantly.

Hi All, Just wanna share a bit of my 'pondering' on my way home just now. Hmm.. I think long journey can coax out the little philosophical in us. Hahah. Anyway, out of the blue :  I was reminded, that I am precious. Nooo.. I'm not being narcissistic or overly confident here. (Maybe a bit. LOL) I mean, I am precious.. In my Father's eyes. I am stubborn. I easily assumes the worst and unnecessarily worried myself. I sometimes put too much confidence on myself. But in some other times, I could chicken-out on things I consider difficult. I do not really care for people that meant nothing to me. I am judgmental and over-critical.  I am too expressive for my own good. My face shows everything I feel. I have mood swings once in a while. I shop too much. I like to sleep a lot and often wake up very late. I can be very lazy and sometimes my room is a pigsty. LOL. But He who knows all my flaws, my imperfection, my thoughts, my dreams,

Heyyylooowww... So.. I can not believe this morning, 5am to be exact, I blog -_- How emo is that?!? Thought I was dreaming or something. I started my day with nightmares :( I was reminded, I mean, WARNED by Nana. But the stubborn-me now was so much like the stubborn-me years ago. I was trying to cling on a rope, that was not made for me. Never made for me. Luckily, today's work is quite okay. Not much to do, which is once in a blue moon. LOL. And thanks to You, Dad, I ended today with a big wide smile on my face. I never thought that giving someone a surprise could bring so much satisfaction and joy for ourselves! It's not a big thing, really. Some balloons, thrown with posters and silly photographs. Combined with one particular song and a simple tunes from a guitar. When those things were done together with love, for the one that we care about, it becomes.. Something. Something big. Touching, even for me whose just helping out to prepar

Hello World, It's 5am. No, I didn't wake up for all the right reasons. It's this nightmare. I wish just like any other dreams, this one will subside when the daylight comes in. But no, as reality downs, it stays. It's just me. And my stupid little wishful thinking. LOL. While blogging can put me in perspective, it also reveals things. Things that I was inclined to say out loud. But lurking at every page, reflected in every words. Well, I'm not doing that John Meyer's thingy anymore. I'm not going to hold my roses while I'm asleep. No no. No more John, thanks a lot. Hmm.. Maybe to call things off before it happened, like what I did years ago, was not a sign of bravery. Nor wisdom. Maybe it just shows how I'm chicken out before a tough journey even begins. Well, that's some revelations. LOL. But just every rose has its thorns as a self-defence mechanism, that was mine. I mean, to chicken-out. As I am the free-fall kind of p

Hey All!! It's another long weekend here in SG. Not as long as the one in Indonesia, but better then nothing of course ;) I've been contemplating on things recently. Like, funny how my mind works. Sometimes people ask you things, which you can answer easily and immediately. But then, some other times, when you're in the middle of something.. SNAP! Like a bulb being switched on, you remember all those questions and how you want to answer it differently. For example: why do you blog if not for publishing your thoughts or share some of your stories? If you are not inclined to let people read it, why blog in the first place? That time, I immediately agree that, yes, I blog because I want people to know my opinions on things (not necessarily an important nor useful info. LOL) Well, I don't say it is completely incorrect. I remember why I blog in the first place. That time I was a wreck. Not physically, more the unseen one. Mentally. I was

The sun is filling up the room and I can hear you dreaming Do you feel the way I do, right now? I wish we would just give up 'Cause the best part is falling, call it anything but love And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening And how long can we keep this up, up, up? Please don't stand so close to me, I'm having trouble breathing I'm afraid of what you'll see, right now I'll give you everything I am All my broken heartbeats until I know you'll understand And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening And how long can we keep this up, up, up? And I keep waiting for you to take me You keep waiting to say what we have So I'll make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening And how long can we keep this up, up, up? Make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How

This is the first time I feel like blogging before midnite. So I was having my take-away Soup Spoon's velvety mushroom soup while trying to watch the first episodes of Drop Dead Diva. Well, I have nothing better to watch since my other TV shows are still on summer holiday -_- Come onnnn... October is nearly winter, you cannot call it 'summer' any longer, man. Where are you Castle, Fringe, The Mentalist, TVD?? Drop Dead Diva is not really my type. Okay, where was I? Oh.. Drop Dead Diva. So, the opening song for the 5th episodes is Jason Mraz's Lucky. Yep, the one featuring Colbie Caillat. This song brought me back to early times, when I was an undergrad with nothing much to do. I remember those old times when the most important decision for the day was to decide which movie to watch, Cineleisure or Grand Cathay. Lol. I'm not saying that I want to go 'turn back time'. As this thought is futile and time-wasting, I also like, no, LOVE,

Hi there! So looooong never post anything here. So many little things happened in my life. Like having a new job. And improving my daily Singlish skill. LOL. Gosh, time flies. In less than 1 year, 7 mths time to be exact, one of my best mate has gone back Jakarta for good. One other will soon following on his path, leaving Singapore. Well, that's another story. For now, I kinda feel an urge to write this down. Even though it must've sound silly, cheesy, and over-exaggerated, but this thing just happened. It comes unannounced. Love happens. Okay okay do not roll your eyes yet, my friend wkwk. Let me explain. When I first admit it to my housemates, I told them it was only a phase that's going to be over soon. A crush for one you admire would surely, logically, stop at one point, right? At least that's what happened to me before. Haha. So apparently, I was wrong. After quite some times, it's still there. One of my friend told me