it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life, tell me how's your family I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier than ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why 'Cause the last time you saw me Still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I go back to December all the time These days I haven't been sleeping Staying up playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call And I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side and Realized I loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days w

I watched 'Hello Stranger' with my friends just now. It was highly recommended by one of my housemate. She has watched it twice and she said if she got no class today, she would join us for another round of 'Hello Stranger' It's a Thai movie taken set in Korea. Just like the title said, a man met a woman. Accident by accident, they had to stick together for the rest of their vacation (which is around 8 days if I'm not mistaken) Firstly they hate each other. But after sharing happiness, journey, and past stories, they started to like each other. And than the man kiss the woman and turn their innocent game into something more complicated. The plot thickens when the ex-girlfriend (whom the man has propose recently) came to Korea. The man confused, as always. Then the woman choose to let the man go.. Blabla Let's not continue further. I think you've seen the similar story before. You could even guess and I bet you would be 90% right. LOL See what BUG me the

It's a beautiful Saturday afternoon. I'm sipping a cup of hot Tong Tji and some martabaks ;) I got nowhere particular to go because I got tons of assignment to do. And I got this.. 'Moody' friend, whom I'm not intend to elaborate since the person might read my blog. HOWEVER. I'm happy today. I don't know why. Despite the assignments and any other problems. Well, maybe it's true that happiness comes from inside, not outside. (Or rather from.. above?) That it is a choice, not a state of mind. Keep the smile up, man ;)

I wish I could stop myself from writing about.. love. Damn, I wish I could stop myself from actually feeling it. Here's the thing.. Remember about the.. sucker I've written on my previous post? Well, now I don't thing he's a sucker any longer. I hate to say but I'm kinda lost here. I don't know what game he plays. I don't know what move should I take next. For all I know I've weakly, foolishly, easily gave up staying away. Months ago, if I happened to read statements above, I would laugh at it. I would roll my eyes and sigh 'KIDS. Why so confused about playing games? It's either you're in. Or out. Now.. Is there anything more interesting you could talk about? Something? Anything at all?' But you see, when I'm the one that 'confused', I finally understood all that 'little chaos' inside. How you need and hate a person at the same time. How you curious about his feeling but afraid to hear the answer of your own question.

This is the last day of my Christmas holiday :( sad sad. Tonight got a 9.20pm flight to catch. It should be on 8 something, but delayed, as usual -_- Okay so I just want to share something. Once upon a time I've fell in love with this song. And given the.. circumstances I've mentioned in previous posting, I kinda relate myself to it. I found out that my recently fave song is usually the one that reflects what I feel at that time. And this one is DEFINITELY 'appropriate' LOL (Tend to LOL when everything seems so serious. Dunno why myself. LOL. okay. stop it) Anyway, this is the video. I'm sure most girls (and some boys) have heard it. And let me high-light the lyrics for you ;) Say you're sorry, that face of an angel Comes out just when you need it to As I paced back and forth all this time Cause I honestly believed in you Holding on, the days drag on Stupid girl, I should have known I should have known I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale I'm