it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

Yellow hello! There's so many things going on, I couldn't find a time (or niat) to sit down. So tonight, I tell myself, "STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND WRITE THOSE THINGS DOWN OR YOU MIGHT MISSED OUT YOUR OPPORTUNITY TO BLESSED OTHERS" Pheww. Sorry for caps. But really, there are lots of stuff I gotta write. Then come this movie and that movie and there goes my moments. It all comes down to making daily choices, really. ANYWAY. Tonight, just a few hours ago, the three of us ladies, were walking to our bus stops. Just now in the prayer tower, one of them prayed about this coming Valentine's Day and how some, well, many of the singles are getting 'worried' and in a 'hurry' to find someone, to the extent of ANYone before the day. I have another childhood story to tell. Err. Nothing to do with the above, but somehow related. Back then when I was in school, I envy those celebrating CNY. (Btw, gong xi gong xi and congrats buat yang menuai angp...

Yellow hello! The first TLG in 2016 was AWESOME! Awesome GOD!!! Personally, the best part was during doa jem 4. Ampun deh baru juga merem, doa, my heart whispered, "You're home." And He told me, "Yes. You are home." Gila deh. Gimana ga banjir.... Maap ya ci Beck tissuenya gw yang abisin wkwk. Ya gitu deh. I'm just super grateful for this little place where my soul is at home. I know that wherever I am, God is with me. But there is no place I'd rather be on a Saturday night.. And for that, I am forever grateful. God is good! Anyway. Today is not another curhat2an ga jelas dari gw wkwk. Today is about one person that has been the major influence in my life since day 1 : MAMA! Last Christmas I had a chance to spend most of my time with her, at home, nonton tv, belanja groceries ala emak2, jogging pagi sama Mupin, ke dokter check-up (baca curhatan gw sblmnya dah), kejebak macet parah di Bandung, beli martabak Boss (penting banget), curhat...

Yellow hello :) Yesterday was the first day back at work in 2016. Udah galau aja Minggu malem kemarin. A bit afraid to see gundukan email and kondisi tray yang (mungkin) overflowing. But that's the thing is it? MUNGKIN. Padahal belom tentu. So before I went to bed on that Sunday night I just prayed and have faith that God who helped David defeated Goliath, will help me to conquer my personal Goliath, too. EH TERNYATA BENER KAN. First day went smoooooth like banana smoothie bahaha. But that's not the thing I wanna share here. Jadi, hari ini gw agak ga enak body, jadi gw batal berenang bersama di Clementi. Gw jg ga lari malem ini. LOH LOH LOH. Kezia berenang sama lari?? Kalo kata si cicik, menanggapi gw berenang, "MARANATHA KE!" Bahahahhahaahahha. Segitunya youu. Buat yang kenal deket sama gw, semuanya sih kaget mayan ya. Gw sama olahraga itu kaya speaker sama tusuk gigi. Ga nyambung aja. Ya kalo diitung gembol2 barang sama mond...

Yellow hello!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS AWESOME PEOPLEE!! Blogging from my very own bedroom with si bandel Mupin sleeping right beside me. What more could I ask, really. Hahahhaa. I have lots of stories from our short-getaway. Epic moments. But I'll tell you later. Now I just want to bask in the glory of Jesus' amazing love. This is the kind of feeling that I just want to bottle up forever. And never let go. Okeh sebelum cerita, below is one song that has blessed me a lot (tears and all).  Enjoy ;) Okeh. Here goes. I have blogged a lot about this friend of mine. We've met in uni. (OMG it's been 7 years......) Have been praying for him for quite some times. (2 yrs? 3 yrs? ga inget.) Mulainya gw itu ga ngerti, kenapa gw musti temenan ama ini bocah. Gw ga bermaksud over-analyze stuff here, tp as I grew deeper in love with Christ, I found it harder and harder to talk to him. Gausah ngomongin curhat girly2 deh. Ngomongin hal biasa aja bisa jadi...

Tadi siang, seorang temen (sebut saja Budi) tau2 Line gw. It's a screen-shot of another friend's post in Path (sebut saja Mawar). Kata si Budi, "Mawar sudah tak sama lagi Kez." Ya intinya, si Mawar (rada malesin pake kode2, tp yaudah lah ya bear with me) ini adalah temen deketketket gw banget. Kalo dari segi karakter, dia itu bawang putih dan gw adalah onggokan bawang merah. Bukannya gw suka menyiksa yeh. Lebih kaya.. Dia itu tipikal menantu idaman dah. Yang bisa bikin mertua happy, suami betah di rumah, rajin berdoa, soleha, santun, sopan, rajin menabung, dll dll. Nah ya gw macam yang kebalikannya dia dah : aga2 seperti lelaki (ga takut kecoak, serangga, dll), bisa ganti bohlam sendiri, volume suara agak besar (apalagi kalo ketawa), dll yang mungkin bisa bkin mertua urut dada wkwkwkwkwkwk. Yah singkat cerita, gw ngobrol sm si Budi and I got it. People change. Pertanyaannya : ke arah MANA kamu berubah. Honestly, gw sedih dan gw merasa ...

"Kok kamu bisa tiba2 jadi singer?" At least there were 5 people came to me with that question ahhahahaha. Seriously. If you're amazed, apalagi gw! Ceritanya hari ini gw harusnya pelayanan keyboard di BIS. Shilton maen filler. Jarang2 deh kita bisa pelayanan pake filler.. keyboardist aja cuman 2 gituhh. Then this afternoon when I was just arrived, there's only ONE keyboard. Apparently there's no filler for the previous service. Eh tiba2 gw ngomong "Apa gw singer aja" HAHAHA. Sebenernya gw becanda sih.. Cuman taunya ciciks WL bilang "There's one extra mic here loh" Wihh! Gw lgs excited mennn. Kaya dari dulu gw pngen jadi singer HAHA! Seriusan ini. Udah dari taun2 lalu pengen ikut audisi singer cuman yah.. Ntar anak2 bebek terlantar krn emaknya kesibukan kemana2 kan gw tanggung jawabnya sama Big Boss juga hahaha. But  I guess God hears even the tiniest whisper of your heart... Singkat cerita. Begitulah ...

Yellow hello :) I'm safely tucked under the duvet. But before I go to sleep, there's a thing or two I've gotta write. Yesterday was a different kind of Sunday. After an impromptu movie date with a friend, we split up and I went around this mall alone. I saw a dress (surprise, surprise) and I was reminded that I need (well, want hahaha) a new dress for Christmas dinner with the ladies. So off I tried it on and went "Well well.. Not bad. Not too shabby my friend. Hmmhmm. Should I?" Out of the blue, He spoke. "Do you think I can't give you something better than.. That." Jleb! Bulls-eye. I went out from the shop without carrying any shopping bag. ____________________________________________ Gila deh, udah sekitar 2 mingguan ini there's one thing that's been kept on repeat over and over again. "KEZIA. WAIT." But.. Wait for what, God? I don't have a clue. I mean, I know there's something big coming my way, ...