it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

12.53 AM By right I should be asleep for now. You know, beauty sleep and all that lol. Actually intended to shut this laptop down but then decided to scroll down by Facebook wall. Well well. Bad decisions, peeps lol. Spotted one MV posted long ago, and like.. well. Hmm. I feel like going home and going back and, you know, that kind of thing you peeps called galau lol. But then I was reminded on last Saturday's Youth Night and things that follow afterwards. Right. Here goes. I've been praying for all guests that was invited to the event. I pray that no matter what they are going to see, hear, and experience, it would be a night of breakthrough for them. For the hopeless to know that there is One True Hope that they can rely on for the rest of their lives. For the unloved to feel that there is this abundant Love comes from the neverending Source. For the sceptic to understand that there is sooo much MORE than what they eyes can see. For the ba...

Yeah! Finally, some me-time! ;) Change bed-sheet? Checked. Doing weekly laundry? Checked. YouTube + earpiece? Checked. Room mate asleep? Checked. LOLS. So many things happened this week. So many words cramped inside this so little space called brain. So here goes: Things revealed. Money lost. Shock. Sick. Feverish. MC. Business taken care. Money found. Miraculously money never lost. Healed. Back to work. Another miracle: 4 accounts closed in 1 day. Awesome FA. Revelations over revelations. Another revelation *smirksmirk* Food tasting. Another soon-to-be-TheRoyal's-colleague. Another meeting. 1st offering sermon EVER. Nervous like.. so nervous. DONE! New friend introduced. Another awesome fellowship. Yep. I guess that's all :) Well, later I'll let you know the detail. Let's just say that I was reminded how it is to live under grace and favor of God. Once you're in, you'd never know how it would be like to be out of it. Like trying t...

Another awesome long weekend here :) Thanks to beloved housemates and The Royals. Superblessed by them. Hope I could bless them as much as they bless me. Anyway. Just a thing or two. The first thing. One song from The Script which I fell in love recently. No, it's not another love song ._. Trust me. Powerful music, even more powerful lyrics, I say. I think it's telling us how he misses his parents and how they become his inspiration to write songs. And I also think that this guy are willing to trade all the fame he has just to see his parents smiling back at him once again. Sad :( Man. I wish I could write such beautiful song. So that when people heard, they would know what I feel when writing the song. They even can FEEL what I felt. Anyway.. Have you ever miss someone so bad? Or a sudden thought of your parents, relative, or friends, or somebody you know flashed your mind? Ah. Don't say you never. Lol. I know you do. Well...

Yes, so you know what I'm about to blog about. LOLS. Really, it's been quite a journey, this blog. I used to write about myself because it was intended for self curcol years ago HAHAHA. Well, since the link to my blog just been posted out to The Royals Whatsapp group, well....... I might as well saying something meaningful, instead of self indulgence and, as Cici Gillian said, "cinta-cintaan" and stuff. Lol. Anyway, I still mentioning love thingy later, so pardon me pleaseeee :P This few weeks, I've been on diet. Diet on listening to emo songs, sad sad music with sadder lyrics. See, you must know yourself, right? Like what kind of thing that 'GET' to you the most. Some people affected by what they see. Some by what they heard. Mine is the latter. Especially songs. Songs that I can relate to. For me, songs are really powerful. They affect my soul. They can build up my spirit, or crush it down. So that's when the insp...

Warning! If you're hungry, better go find something to eat first than drooling over your laptop/phone/etc lol. Many things happened today. Like, things that gave me lasting impressions and worth to be remembered. I called this kind of stuff 'bottle-up moments'. Because some moments are just too precious, too rare, and if you could just put them all in a bottle, then you could pick one bottle, one memory, from time to time. Just to remind you how was it back then. Okay so here they are : 1. Shilton's birthday! YAY!! Legal! Happy birthday once again, Bro! All the best for your study, your ministry, your relationships with Pricil and friends, and most of all so you experience Jesus deeper in your daily life. So that in everything that you do, you feel God and ppl see Him in you as well. Keep the fire burning! :P:P 2. Ci Gil's nasi uduk! Have been drooling over her instagram's pic this morning. Her mom came and brough...

Just finish unpacking my stuff. There goes Bali trip. Time flies. Seems like it's just yesterday when we heard about this company trip and that we had to register before the due date. Now the 3 days is over. Well. But I'm glad I'm home now :) It's funny, right? Things happened. Just a few days ago everything was nice and safe and so ordinary. I turned it all around in one night. It's true, isn't it? How a few seconds could make a great difference and separate present from the past. My previous blog? I finally did it. Something that I've been thinking about now and then. This battle I thought I never won because I just DON'T WANT to. Because it's easier to STAY then LEAVE. It's true, when you fight your battle on your knees, you see amazing things happened. I don't know how I got the strength and courage to do so. Somehow, I did it. Talked it all out, though I kept shivering while doing it. Many times t...

Have you seen the moon tonight? It was superbig and seems too close to the earth. Hiding behind all those trees, feels like you can climb up and if you're lucky enough, you can see Neil Armstrong's footsteps. LOL LOL. Exaggerating much! I can brag about how the wind sounds like music to my ear. Or how the bushes smell of flowers (err). Or even saying that the pedestrian which I was walking on was so soft it's like walking on clouds. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Simply put, I am happy :) Annoyingly happy. You may ask why. But I won't tell. LOLS. But this silly happiness that clouding my mind, somehow it helps me see myself on a new perspective. Well. Not entirely new. Just something I have been contemplating about for several weeks. Like if you put your heart in 2 different places. Serving 2 masters. And in the end, whichever side won, you will still lose. Because half of your heart belong someplace else. I don't wanna be that kind of person...