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Here and Now

12.53 AM

By right I should be asleep for now. You know, beauty sleep and all that lol.
Actually intended to shut this laptop down but then decided to scroll down by Facebook wall.
Well well. Bad decisions, peeps lol.
Spotted one MV posted long ago, and like.. well. Hmm.
I feel like going home and going back and, you know, that kind of thing you peeps called galau lol.
But then I was reminded on last Saturday's Youth Night and things that follow afterwards.

Right.

Here goes.

I've been praying for all guests that was invited to the event.
I pray that no matter what they are going to see, hear, and experience, it would be a night of breakthrough for them.
For the hopeless to know that there is One True Hope that they can rely on for the rest of their lives.
For the unloved to feel that there is this abundant Love comes from the neverending Source.
For the sceptic to understand that there is sooo much MORE than what they eyes can see.
For the back-slider to be reminded of their First Love and to be made stronger in faith than ever.

And you know what?
When I hope that others received, I (yes, ME!) was the one who got MORE than my feeble mind could ever conceive.
It's.. More than my words can say.
Simply said, I got this assurance (well, more like RE-assurance) that I was in the right place and at the right time.
I mean not only for that night, but for Singapore.
For my study.
For my job.
For my house.
For my roommate ;)
For my Church community.
For my FA and all the preciously gifted peeps in it. So privileged to know all of you, guys. Really.
For everything that happened to me and the choices I've made, He made everything so beautiful till my knees tremble.

See, I'm just a regular person.
I got galau from time to time.
Sometimes I got anxious for dead-lines at works.
Sometimes I got overwhelmed by those online shops lol lol.
Sometimes I miss home (Jakarta home), sometimes I miss.. other stuff. Lol.
But that makes this all the more beautiful.
Because in my weaknesses His power make perfect :)
That it's not by my strength or my might or my bright mind lol lol that leads me to everything that I am today.
It is Jesus.

And like another normal person, I still don't know about the future.
Like, I know that now Singapore is my place.
This is where He wants me to be right now.
I might wish that I could stay here forever.
I might wish that I don't have to go back for good.
I might be wishing for other stuff as well.
But I give it all back to Him.
Wherever He wants me to go, I'll go.
Here and now and forever more, as long as I walk with Him, I am safe and secure.
Because all His plans are for good and not for disaster, to give us a future and a hope (Jer29:11)

And like all those songs say, He never let go :)


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