it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

I watched 'Hello Stranger' with my friends just now. It was highly recommended by one of my housemate. She has watched it twice and she said if she got no class today, she would join us for another round of 'Hello Stranger' It's a Thai movie taken set in Korea. Just like the title said, a man met a woman. Accident by accident, they had to stick together for the rest of their vacation (which is around 8 days if I'm not mistaken) Firstly they hate each other. But after sharing happiness, journey, and past stories, they started to like each other. And than the man kiss the woman and turn their innocent game into something more complicated. The plot thickens when the ex-girlfriend (whom the man has propose recently) came to Korea. The man confused, as always. Then the woman choose to let the man go.. Blabla Let's not continue further. I think you've seen the similar story before. You could even guess and I bet you would be 90% right. LOL See what BUG me the...

It's a beautiful Saturday afternoon. I'm sipping a cup of hot Tong Tji and some martabaks ;) I got nowhere particular to go because I got tons of assignment to do. And I got this.. 'Moody' friend, whom I'm not intend to elaborate since the person might read my blog. HOWEVER. I'm happy today. I don't know why. Despite the assignments and any other problems. Well, maybe it's true that happiness comes from inside, not outside. (Or rather from.. above?) That it is a choice, not a state of mind. Keep the smile up, man ;)

I wish I could stop myself from writing about.. love. Damn, I wish I could stop myself from actually feeling it. Here's the thing.. Remember about the.. sucker I've written on my previous post? Well, now I don't thing he's a sucker any longer. I hate to say but I'm kinda lost here. I don't know what game he plays. I don't know what move should I take next. For all I know I've weakly, foolishly, easily gave up staying away. Months ago, if I happened to read statements above, I would laugh at it. I would roll my eyes and sigh 'KIDS. Why so confused about playing games? It's either you're in. Or out. Now.. Is there anything more interesting you could talk about? Something? Anything at all?' But you see, when I'm the one that 'confused', I finally understood all that 'little chaos' inside. How you need and hate a person at the same time. How you curious about his feeling but afraid to hear the answer of your own question. ...

This is the last day of my Christmas holiday :( sad sad. Tonight got a 9.20pm flight to catch. It should be on 8 something, but delayed, as usual -_- Okay so I just want to share something. Once upon a time I've fell in love with this song. And given the.. circumstances I've mentioned in previous posting, I kinda relate myself to it. I found out that my recently fave song is usually the one that reflects what I feel at that time. And this one is DEFINITELY 'appropriate' LOL (Tend to LOL when everything seems so serious. Dunno why myself. LOL. okay. stop it) Anyway, this is the video. I'm sure most girls (and some boys) have heard it. And let me high-light the lyrics for you ;) Say you're sorry, that face of an angel Comes out just when you need it to As I paced back and forth all this time Cause I honestly believed in you Holding on, the days drag on Stupid girl, I should have known I should have known I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale I'm ...

1. It's always the girl that has to put up with the crying stuff. 2. There's nothing beats mom's hugs when the going gets tough. 3. It's good to have a boy-friend (errr I mean a friend that happens to be a boy. Not.. The other one, okay) that you can trust. You can tell him any kind of things you cannot tell your girl-friends. And when you hurt, somehow this kind of friend would make a joke out of any kind of problem, and I could laugh eventually. In the other hand, talking to girl-friends is tougher sometimes. Especially when everything's still raw and.. difficult. They have this pitying look on their eyes, and I found it's hard NOT to cry harder when they give you this 'I-know-how-it-feels' speeches. 4. The right guy on the wrong time will turn out to be a wrong guy afterall. LOL 5. No matter how many fingers you cross, how many coins you toss in the fountain, how many wishes you make on a star, it it's not meant to be, it won't happen. 6. Hey...

I'm sure you've heard this before 'Men are from Mars. Women are from Venus'. It's actually the title of book written by John Gray in 1992. According to this book, the source of many misunderstanding between the two gender is the difference between their communication style and emotional need. One thing I most agree is that women talks about their problems to find friendly allies, just to be heard. However, men talks to get solution for their problem. As a girl, I often find that men are the most insensitive creature on earth. They just don't have a clue about unspeakable needs of girls. Or maybe they just play dumb? LOL Take my dad as a simple case study. He almost never remember anyone's birth day. He even forgotten my mom's birthday, which I found rather unbelievable since it was on Dec 24. I mean, it's ONE day before CHRISTMAS, Dad! He also forgets mine and my sisters, but we've gotten used to it. So on Christmas night, while having our Christ...

Last night I was too tired to write EVERYTHING here. Funny how I woke up too early in the morning after *sigh Anyway, I couldn't spoil the juicy detail here since it's too personal LOL But I will.. outline it as best as I could ;) So I was on the verge of giving all up 2 days ago.. I think I was just imagining things. Or so did my friend (which is NOT a girl) say.. But yesterday, 'good thing' happened. I was so so happy beyond words. I just couldn't sit still while waiting for my bus. LOL And later at night, something GREATER happened. Sorry I could not elaborate further :( Maybe later :) Cut the story short, I was delirious last night. My housemates were so sweet, they say they were happy happy happy to see me happy. But they also warned me. For I've known that he wouldn't be here forever. They said, I gotta choose. Being extremely happy now and cry later on. Or keep the distance, so that I wouldn't cry as much as I would in the first case. My housemate...