Last night I was too tired to write EVERYTHING here.
Funny how I woke up too early in the morning after *sigh
Anyway, I couldn't spoil the juicy detail here since it's too personal LOL
But I will.. outline it as best as I could ;)
So I was on the verge of giving all up 2 days ago..
I think I was just imagining things. Or so did my friend (which is NOT a girl) say..
But yesterday, 'good thing' happened.
I was so so happy beyond words. I just couldn't sit still while waiting for my bus. LOL
And later at night, something GREATER happened.
Sorry I could not elaborate further :(
Maybe later :)
Cut the story short, I was delirious last night.
My housemates were so sweet, they say they were happy happy happy to see me happy.
But they also warned me.
For I've known that he wouldn't be here forever.
They said, I gotta choose. Being extremely happy now and cry later on.
Or keep the distance, so that I wouldn't cry as much as I would in the first case.
My housemates also say that they HATE seeing me sad
because my mood determines all of theirs.
(Love them so much much much for being so sweet and care for me :))
But you see..
As I say before, thousand times, I don't fall easily.
I fall in. And out of it twice as fast as when I fall in. LOL
My male buddy I've mentioned above said,
"You should suppress your hope in case you would be disappointed if things go wrong"
Prudence concept.
According to my accounting lecturers we should not overstate profit or understate cost.
In my case, overstate my expectation or understate my 'disappointment level'.
Hey, I really hope this accounting principle could be easily applied elsewhere.
But as my twitter friend once said "It's a heart matter"
And a heart matter never been easy nor rational.
So as a response to him, I said, "But I don't want to stop feeling."
He said, "So, he's THAT special, huh?"
Yes, he is. HAHAHAHA
(laugh for the sake of keeping matters SEEMS lighter than it really is -_-)
I know nothing is forever. And in my case, time is running too fast.
WAY too fast.
I don't know what's the ending's gonna be.
But I'll give it a try.
Coz like I've said before. I have faith.
In you :)
"When you hold your love. Don't ever let it go. Or you may lose your chance to make your dreams come true" - Endah and Rhesa
Gosh I sound like teen. An emo one. LOL
God help me.
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