Day 1

Yellow peeps!

Been away for some time.. and it's suddenly June whoa!

May's been super! :D I might post some pic from HK-Macau trip with the ladies.

But that's not what I'm about to blog.

Last week during mentorship, we are challenged to take a further step of faith by fasting and prayer. Honestly, fasting is not something 'natural' for me.

I love food a little bit too much lolol.

But what makes it harder is this :

You may not realize this, but too often our prayer is actually a list of requests read out loud to God.

And during this one month, while fasting, we're supposed to ask nothing BUT His presence and to solely focusing on GOD instead of His miracle or His breakthrough or His healing etc etc.

To discipline myself, I'll be writing whatever revealed or taught to me during this one whole month.

And yes, it's on daily basis.

So. This is day 1.

I was walking back home. Thinking about this friend of mine.

More than a few times I wonder why we could even be friend.

Like. We only see each other once or twice each year. Tops.

We have a few mutual friends, but that's all.

It's been, what? 6 yrs? And each year, the gap is getting wider.

Gap as in, we don't hold the same principal in life.

What is important in life for me, is not his.

What is important in life for him, is not mine.

I don't think he understands why I am the way I am today. Vice versa.

We're basically come from different planets.

But I wanna stop asking this 'why' question.

(I did to much of over-thinking lately, or so I was told)

Instead, I would just believe that we are friends for a reason.

And whatever reason it is, I would just be a listening ear and a good friend.

Then, I saw families having a stroll along the river.

Which bring my thought to my family back home.

..which I miss very much.

I think I've written earlier how close-knit our family is.

I could stay at home for the whole week, just because we're enjoying each other company so much lol.

If you ask me what we do, well..

Watched movie. Watched people arguing on some kind of debate (my dad).

Watched my dog running around the room. Watched my mom scolding my dog because she chews on stuff lol.

We talk a lot. We argue over trivial things just because we know that it's okay to have different opinions.

I only appreciate this lately, but I am supergrateful that Dad never shut our opinions down even when he is strongly against or agree of something.

Friends may come and go.

But then, so does family in a longer term.

And I realize that the only constant thing in my life is Jesus.

In fact, the only constant thing in this world is Jesus

When I was not into Him, He is into me.

When I was not even aware that there is this Person who dies so I could live,

He was here all along.

He will always be.

And even when I walk through the valley of the Death, I could take comfort in Him, knowing that He is is protecting and guiding me through any kind of dangers.

The next thing I see in the park was a funny looking stroller.

Funny for it was gliding on by itself without no body pushing.

More like, no body I could see (lol) because when I walked pass the stroller, I saw a toddler in white diapers (lol) staggering while maneuvering the stroller around.

His (her?) parents were standing nearby. Watching.

They were ready to grab the stroller should their toddler wandering too near the river.

Well, I thought, he should be INSIDE the stroller, being pushed around comfortably.

And I realize that that exactly what I always do.

Instead of trusting God completely with my life, I choose to 'maneuver' things around myself.

Things will be a lot easier and effective if I could surrender ALL to Him instead of letting my ego take control of things.

Night peeps.

You are loved, well taken care of, and safe with Him.