See-Through

Yellow peeps!!!!

AWESOME DAY.

Had a sleep-over last night.

Followed by a hearty brunch session.

Planning to go to Toby's Estate, but then they happened to serve only toast and coffee due to some kind of renovation.

So Kith Cafe it is.

Their brioche yogurt was superrrrrrrniceeeeee I might go there for the yogurt itself lol.

Not forgetting the cozy and relaxing ambiance and the cool drizzly air.

Perfect brunch. Perfect companions.

Yesterday during cell group fellowship, the topic given was about being an epistle of Christ.

Cut thing short, I happened to be reminded that in order to be one 'open-letter' that can be read by basically anyone, we must live a transparent life.

A life that is so pure and acceptable so there is no misunderstanding when other ppl sees it.

Well, it's true.

You can't control what ppl thinks about you.

You can't control ppl's opinion on you.

But you definitely can control where you are and what you do and with whom you're with.

Then I start to share a thing or two about my past.

And I happened to keep some pics. LOL.

Well don't think too much, kay lol.

During the first year of uni, I was 'transformed'.

Simply said, I never had so much freedom in my life.

Until this.

Far from mom and dad and no family or old friend whatsoever, I got a chance to re-invent myself.

Bahahha reinvent myself.

So there I went from club to club. I didn't get drunk.. that much.

Well what? I didn't do THAT bad, I know many kids my age do worseee.

I was born a Christian.

And if you ask me, aren't you supposed to NOT go clubbing?

I had this little voice inside that asking me this same question every time I went for the night.

But I told myself that it's okay. It's not like I'm looking for a random guy or what.

If you ask me why I stop doing it.

Well.

I might say that it's because there's this one time when I got so drunk I can't even control what I'm saying.

I might say the next day I woke up knowing that I'm wasting my life away.

I might say that I know that life worth more than partying.

But I know that the reason I stop everything, was all because of God's grace.

Living a transparent life doesn't mean you are perfect.

If you ask me 'you not shy meh? *Singlish ftw* Ppl see their cell group leader drinking n stuff'

Well honestly a part of me does.

I mean, if I could turn back time. But I couldn't.

Last week, my devotional was about 'Jesus's scar'.

Jesus did not have to retain the scars of the crucifixion on His resurrected body. He could have returned without them.

After all, He is the one who put new flesh on the hands and feet of the lepers.

But He chose to keep the scars, I believe, because they were precious to Him…that’s how others would recognize who He was.That is still the way people recognize Jesus today, when we are not ashamed to show the scars in our own lives.

When we reveal the wounds that are now healed, and tell others about the Healer who made it possible.

(Here's the link : http://www.girlfriendsingod.com/2014/jesus-scars/ )

I believe that each and everyone of us has this 'scar' that was hidden and concealed for other's eyes.

Other's, except Jesus's.

This realization gives me strength and courage to be, well, transparent.

If Jesus can see everything right through me, that means He sees all my imperfections, all my past, all the wounds.

But instead of looking away, He told me that it's okay, He loves me still.

That my life was not a ruin. I might not see it yet at that time, but it's a work in progress.

HIS work in progress.

My part was to choose.

Haven't I told you that life is all about making choices?

I could choose to live my life the way I wanted it for myself.

Or. ORRR. Or I could chose to let God do whatever He wants and live under His love and grace.

Okayy.

So.

Living a transparent life doesn't mean you are perfect.

Living a transparent life means you have a perfect God that loves your imperfection perfectly.

Here's a song that sum up how I feel now.

Night peeps.

You are loved :)