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The Big Turn-Off

Remember my last blog?

This one written in totally different mood with the previous.
The exactly opposite mood, in fact. LOL

There's something happened today.
I cannot say PRECISELY what was it, but let's just say, it was A Big Turn Off for me.
It had something to do with broken promises. Or an expectation set too high? You choose.
The final outcome is still the same.

I blogged about this before, but to jog your memory, lemme say this once again.
I don't fall for the looks. Neither for other perceivable qualities a girl dream of.
I choose integrity over popularity (see how my introverted side affect me)

Recently one of my housemate-slash-bestfriend ask me, what does it mean, really..
Integrity?

According to Miriam Webster, INTEGRITY means

1 : firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values : INCORRUPTIBILITY

2 : an unimpaired condition : SOUNDNESS

3 : the quality or state of being complete or undivided : COMPLETENESS

YES. If I had to choose one quality from a person (especially from opposite sex. HAHA) that attracts me the most, it will be INTEGRITY.

For me it means he determines RIGHT and WRONG boldly. Black and white, rather than grey.
He walks in the path that he knows right, distraction comes and goes but he sticks to his principles. He's incorruptible.(God knows how ppl nowadays. When being corrupt means you've followed the trend)

As I say before, distraction and obstacle exists. However, this won't make him afraid to stand against majority, although it means he walks alone (with me, of course ;P). When I said 'stand against', he doesn't just shut up and doing what he knows best in silence. He would speak out his thoughts, soundly, and stand his ground when necessary.

I think to possessed integrity is somehow related with doing things exactly like he says.
Or rather a consistency of mind and act (and heart).
Oppositely, I don't think a hypocrite could be having integrity, since what they say usually means the other way around.

All I'm saying is please be honest in your words and acts if you really wanna make a good impression. To any girl. Not just me.



Hmmm.. I wanna share one song that somehow lifted my mood up.
This song is not exactly related to what I've written above, even rather conflicting. LOL.
Well, what can I say? I just love it. And ppl says love is blind, right?





I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say… “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way….
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…


I might quite disappointed today.

But I learnt a lesson.

That faith doesn't easily vanished :)

And I have faith in you..

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