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A Love With No Strings Attached

Today during main session worship, God asked me a question that made me go,
“What? I don’t get it. What are you trying to say??”

HAHAHA tbh it’s not that I don’t get what He’s saying..
It’s just that I don’t understand why He asked me that,
“Ke, from now on, you can stop praying for AB and start praying for Indonesia.”

I mean.. Does that mean I should move on and forget what He’s doing with AB?
I wrestled about it a bit, but yielding gets easier and easier with each ‘funny request’ of my Father.

So I told Him, “Ok Papa. I trust your heart.”

But the next second, another thought came,
“But Papa. You know I’ll think about him. And when I think about him, of course I’m gonna talk to You about him and isn’t it the same thing as praying for him? I mean I might not write down my prayer like what I’m doing right now. But still. How can I not praying for someone I love?”

I heard Him chuckled.
“Exactly.”

Once again, I am amazed by His genius.
With one sentence, He revealed what’s hidden in my heart, He challenged my paradigm, and He shift something in my heart. With just one sentence.

He reminded me of this small thing that happened yesterday. I accidentally dropped my toilet paper and the word “unfolding” came to my mind. He then said, “Ke. From now on, you can just rest. Because the future is now unfolding. All My moves are set in motion.”

So when He asked me NOT to pray. He basically reminding me that He’s got this.
That everything that has happened and everything that WILL happen is only happen because of Him.
Nothing that I’ve done has earned this (whatever this may look like in the future HAHA).
With one sentence, He’s made it impossible for me to boast about what I’ve done in the secret place that could earn AB’s love. With one sentence, He’s made it impossible for me to have a sense of entitlement.
He wants me to know that AB is the greatest GIFT from the Lord. He’s with me, purely to show me the grace of the One who loves me the most. He’s with me, purely because God has moved in the background.

Then He reminded me of His love, and He’s reminding me that I’m now loving AB with His love.
His love is an open-handed kind of love. He invites us to receive His love. But we are never forced to receive it. That’s the beauty of God’s invitation. We are given full freedom to say “yes” or “no” to Him. And even when it’s a no from us, His offers still stands. He waits for us to come home.

I was scrolling through my email when I stumbled upon this devotional,
“That is exactly what God said to Jesus. “Son, I love them so much that I have to do something!” Then He sent His one and only perfect Son to earth where He would live and die for you and for me. God’s love is unconditional -  a love with no string attached - a love worth celebrating.”

My heart knows instantly what He’s saying.
He wants me to love simply and purely, like Him.
He wants me to redeem the part of AB’s life where people seemed to withhold their love to control or manipulate each other. I mean, the world’s kind of love seeks to be reciprocated. “At least you gotta give me something. Because I’ve done this much for you.”

But God is different. He loves us unconditionally. He loves us with no string attached.
He is now teaching me to love unconditionally. He’s teaching me to love AB with no string attached.
And I’m saying yes to everything that He shifts within me. I’m saying yes to offering my love. I’m saying yes to wanting him to be part of my future. But even if he chose not to, I’ll still choose to love. I’m saying yes to loving AB with no string attached.
I never felt so vulnerable, yet at the same time, so covered by His love.
I am reminded of that time when Ruth chose to lay at Boaz feet.
I felt so weak, yet so strong.

And just now, while sitting on my sofa, talking to the Father, I started to pray for Indonesia.

He said,
“I want Indonesia like you want AB. I love Indonesia the way you love AB right now. I want Indonesia to received My love, the way you want AB to receive yours, too. You see. Right now, you can only love him in prayer, but when he says yes to you, he’ll receive the fullness of your love. Right now, I can only love Indonesia as far as they allow me to. I want Indonesia to receive the fullness of My love, too.”

ISN’T GOD A GENIUS!!
I get it, God.
I get it HAHA.

I can see that this is the starting point of God preparing my heart for my nation. Before He grows the love for Indonesia in my heart, He’s showing me how He really feels about Indonesia through my feeling to AB. Termantap lah You, Pak.


“She sets her heart upon a nation and takes it as her own, carrying it within her.
She labors there to plant the living vines.”
Proverbs 31:16 TPT

Thank you for choosing me for this adventure of a lifetime, Papa.
Thank you for never giving up on me, for never stop chasing after my heart.
Thank you for trusting me with Your heart and Your desires.
Thank you for every prayer answered.
Now I want to live to answer Your prayer, too.

Give me a heart for my nation. Give me a heart for Indonesia.
As You’ve taught me to love AB, teach me to love Indonesia.
A love with no strings attached.

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