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How Do You Know That You're in Love

Hi there! So looooong never post anything here. So many little things happened in my life.
Like having a new job. And improving my daily Singlish skill. LOL.
Gosh, time flies.
In less than 1 year, 7 mths time to be exact, one of my best mate has gone back Jakarta for good.
One other will soon following on his path, leaving Singapore.
Well, that's another story.
For now, I kinda feel an urge to write this down.
Even though it must've sound silly, cheesy, and over-exaggerated, but this thing just happened. It comes unannounced.
Love happens.

Okay okay do not roll your eyes yet, my friend wkwk. Let me explain.

When I first admit it to my housemates, I told them it was only a phase that's going to be over soon.
A crush for one you admire would surely, logically, stop at one point, right?
At least that's what happened to me before. Haha.

So apparently, I was wrong.

After quite some times, it's still there.

One of my friend told me that it should be more than crush.
I do not respond.
I refuse to admit it blindly. 
For me, Love is one small word with a too-big of a meaning.
See,I'm a fatalist.
For me, life is black and white. True or false. All or nothing.
That's why it's harder for ppl like me.
Admitting that you're in love, for me, it's like cracking your shell and let your self become vulnerable.
It's like a bungee-jumping with a rope that you don't know the length nor the strength.


So, I tried to step back and analyze myself.
So far, this is my 'founding' :


Heart beat faster when seeing his face or hearing his voice. Checked.

Suddenly loose the ability to joke when he's around. Checked.

Say hello to everyone but with that particular person, I'm speechless. Checked.

Looking forward too eagerly for the day when I could see him. Checked.

Cannot say the person's name without feeling a 'flinch' inside. Checked.

Spot the person in 2 sec in the room filled of hundreds. Checked.

Couldn't help staring when no one's looking. LOL. Checked.

Daydreaming. Okay, I'm ashamedly admit I did. A bit. A bit onllyyyy, believe me. But still.. Checked.

Couldn't sleep for silly, small reasons (my friends should've known about this one lol).

Having my iPod shuffled to Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are and thinking that there is nothing I'd like to change, because he's amazing just the way he is ._.


I should stop with the list. I'm embarrassing myself here. Lol.

Anyway.....


On my way home today, I remember this one quote from Castle.
(I'm a movie-series fans. And one of them is Castle. If you're fancy a 40 minutes comedy-thriller with a spice of romance, highly recommended).

So in this episode, Castle's daughter, Alexis, is having a thing with a boy from her college and Castle who seems to have an emotional intelligence like a teenage boy himself, ask his partner Kate Becket,


Castle: How do you know when you're in love?

Beckett: All the songs make sense.



Well, that's it.


I'm in love, aren't I?

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

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