A New Song!

I am now sitting in my cubicle, thinking, it's only less than 4 hours after lunch, yet so many things happened. And none of them are work related lol.

Less than 1 hour ago, Ijah sent me a dog related post (as usual hahaha) and I asked her how she's doing these days. Well, we used to meet at least twice a week, during cell group and TLG. And I know, with or without the recent changes, it's been a challenging year for both of us.

So when she told me, "Surviving. But not denying that this period is very tough indeed."

I FEEL YOU JAH.

wkwkwkwkwkwkwkkwkwwkwkw.

But let me open this post with gratitude of God's faithfulness.

Last Monday, after enjoying too much Song Fa and all those café thingy with me in SG, my mom admitted to hospital. Apparently those headache were not ordinary nausea (masuk ingin. no better English translation here lol). It's dengue. We suspect she was 'bitten' in Indo because there's a dengue case nearby my house. The fogging thing was kinda late.

But today she was discharged HOO HAA! God is good!

And I thanked God because Febe was there to help around.

And Febe was there to help around because she's in the waiting for her uni announcement and the scholarship as well.

SO! We just spoke. She told me that her application was in waiting list while her scholarship's deadline for the admission of her uni must be by today. Err rather complicated, really.

Cut short, she did not make it.

Her previous application to UK and Netherland weren't successful either.

And her last door was closed  with a loud BANG!

When mom's here, we talked about this uni thing.

How dad kinda opposed the whole idea.

I remember I told mom, God really can do anything.

But if He closed this door, I prayed He also protects Febe's heart from any harm of disappointment.

So when Febe texted me, I quickly called her.

You know what she told me?

Febe has been appointed as one of FUSE (her cell group) core member.

And yesterday was her first FUSE as a core member, and the sharing was about 'faith.'

She was reminded that it's not about being sure that what we WANT will be ours.

But rather, to be SURE that God is sovereign in all situations.

She told me that all this time she's been limiting God with the kind of prayer : work or master degree.

Because God is bigger than 'work or master degree.'

In fact, if God told Febe 'be a scuba diver'.

Against all sense, and beyond of comprehension, she should just say YES.

Because she knows who God is. He is good. He is BEYOND our comprehension.

ALL THAT was before the announcement today.

She told me that in the waiting, God has taught her SO MANY THINGS.

Like MMMMAAANYYY.

And I told her I can see that. Clearly.

Because Febe to whom I'm speaking now is not the Febe a few months ago.

She has grown. A lot. In understanding of God's heart and mostly, in faith.

She has been stretched so much. I could see that the past season of waiting was not easy at all for her.

It's been, what? A year? (aduh seriously bad at remembering dates and time wkwk).

And this stretch has make her more than a sister to me. Know we are peers in our race of running after God. We can see eye to eye. And my heart can be more glad knowing that MY JOB IS DONE.

FEBE IS COVERED! wkwkw. God. I love you.

You know what.

Even as I wrote the things above, I am in tears. yes. In my office cubicle AND in tears wkwk.

God reminded me that all that tears and sacrifice of obedience.. of leaving my family behind.

My sister has reaped what I've sown.

When I step down from the 'core', He appointed Febe IN to the 'core' team.

Wow God. So big. So.. WOW (lost for words).

It's not about the position of being in the core team, disclaimer okay.

It's about being reminded that every act of faith in humility will have it's ripple effect to our loved ones..

It's been a tough season, yes, Jah.. I admit it is tough.

I wrestled with a lot of things. When my comfort is stripped away.. It's kinda like swimming alone.

But then.. I realize that I am NOT alone for I wrestle WITH God.

This morning on my way to the office, while walking to the bus stop, I asked God in desperation..

'God.. I don't know where I am.. Please, give me a new song to dance to..'

He knew what I meant. I asked for Him to guide me in this season of THE UNKNOWN.

And.. God being God WKWKWKWK.

Today a new EP album from Planetshakers was just released.

NOT ALONE

[Verse 1]
When I feel distant
Your love draws me close
When my hope is missing
Your presence is my home

[Verse 2]
You're my protector
Your word keeps me safe
The love of my Father
Nothing can separate

[Pre-Chorus]
No matter where I've been or what I've done
You'll never leave or hold back Your love
Your presence is surrounding me

[Chorus 1]
I am not alone, You are here with me
You've given me Your heart and You will never leave
Father, You're always good and You're always here for me
You'll never leave

[Verse 3]
When I feel broken
You show me what it cost
To win back my freedom
My Saviour on the cross

[Pre-Chorus]
No matter where I've been or what I've done
You'll never leave or hold back Your love
Your presence is surrounding me

[Chorus 1]
I am not alone, You are here with me
You've given me Your heart and You will never leave
Father, You're always good and You're always here for me
You'll never leave

[Bridge]
For all of my days
Your love wraps around me
Love wraps around my heart
And I am safe
I'll worship forever
Worship with all my heart
For all of my days
Your love wraps around me
Love wraps around my heart
And I am safe
I'll worship forever
Worship with all my heart

[Chorus 2]
I am not alone, You are here with me
You've given me Your heart and You will never leave
Father, You're always good and You're always here for me
You'll never leave
You'll never leave, You'll never leave
You'll never leave, You'll never leave!

[Bridge]
For all of my days
Your love wraps around me
Love wraps around my heart
And I am safe
I'll worship forever
Worship with all my heart
For all of my days
Your love wraps around me
Love wraps around my heart
And I am safe
I'll worship forever
I'll worship with all my heart!

HE REALLY GAVE ME A NEW SONG!! Like. Literally wkwk.

Father, YES INDEED, You're always good.

And you're always here for me.

I love You.

Let Your Love be the only song I dance along to. Forever.