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You Make Me Brave

"Mama sih gapapa kalo kamu ga nikah"

EAA!!
Kalo ini sinetron, pasti udah zoom in, lagu tambah dramatis, trus "...to be continued"
Wkwkwk. Tapi ini bukan sinetron sih, ini gw lg berbincang2 sama mama n dede.

Yep so last CNY hols I went back Jkt.
Seneng banget cuti bentar tapi dapetnya almost one whole week! Yippee! 
My dad insisted we're going Bandung. Dia pengen belanjain kita di FO gitu2.
Ya gw sih enjoy aja lah yaa.. Meskipun yg banyakan belanja juga si Papa Mama.
Gw ama si dede sempet ilang makan sosis sampe nambah aja mereka belom kelar.
Ohwell. Now I know knp gw demen belanja. Hahahaha.
I love the food. Obviously.
I love waking up to Muffin barking minta naik ke ranjang gw.
I love the impromptu ngemil tengah malem.
And most of all, I love the curhat session.
Of course di sini cuman gw sama mama and dede lah ya.
Girls talk gitu deh.

Mulai soal kuliah skripsi dkk (Febe), soal kerjaan, promosi, new responsibilities (gw) sampe soal ngapain kalo udah pensiun (mama).
Yah namanya juga cewe, UUJ.
Ujung Ujungnya Jodoh. Yaelah hahahaha.
Seriusan gw ga ngerti kenapa tapi pasti ini ada dibahas deh.

Awalnya salah gw sih emang. Wkwkwk
 Gw tanya si dede lah, gimana ada yg 'seru2' ga? #kode
Ya kalo mau cerita tentang si Febe dateng aja ke FA The Royals, Jumat ini 7.30PM #promosiaja

Okeh jadi gw share tentang gw aja lah. Aman ga ada yg ngomel privacy lol.

Ya intinya there's this one time not so long ago, God asked me this question :
"How if I want you to be alone. Alone as never to get married."
Ini gw lg jemur baju terus ada beginian. Kan aneh.
Ya gw blg aja "Ya if that's what You want, just make it clear to me from the beginning. Like, NOW.
So I don't need to pray for something unnecessary when actually I can pray for something else yg emang bener2 according to Your will. Also I don't need to see-see-look-look and waste time/energy etc"

Mungkin at this point, some of you (terutama yg jomblo ama yg ngarep) langsung touch wood. Bahaha!
Some of you might quote the Scripture and told me kalo mereka cuman menjalankan perintah untuk berkembang biak dan memenuhi bumi.
Iya.. Saya juga begitu. Dulu. Lol.
Nonono! Gw bukan bilang kalo gw mau celibate or gimana.
I just say, I believe that whatever He has in store for you is the best one for you.
So if He told me that He wants me NOT to get married, well, I believe that I won't be lacking of anything. On the contrary, if I walk along the path He ask me to walk, then I will bear fruits more than my wildest dream could imagine.
Basically, when you know that your life is safe in His hands, isn't it better to give it up completely, instead of holding on a part of your life you want to control by yourself?

So! Balik lagi ke bincang2 gw sm ciwiks2 Lumiling. Haha.
After I told my mom about this jemuran conversation, she told me that basically, she is okay should He ask me not to get married at all.
Emang sih dari dulu si Mama ga pernah banget tuh nanya2in cowo or yg 'kapan kawin' 'mama mau cucu' gitu2. Si Papa sih suka diem2 doa (menurut dede gw. Well. Bapak2..)
Dulu gw ga ngerti kenapa sih si Mama kok santai begitu?
When every friend of mine seems to be haunted by the same kind of question tiap balik Indo, why my parents never really, you know, pressing this matter.
Kata ci Gil sih harusnya gw seneng.
Tapi kan aneh aja ga sih? Kok kaya out of the norm banget.

But now actually I understand my Mom's point of view.
I understand completely that she knows I'm safe in God's hands.
So whatever state I'm in, singular/plural lol, I'm completely OK. Fine. Great.
And when I'm with Him, I am complete.

If some of you ask me, emang lu ga pengen dicintai?
....Coba mungkin bisa di refer ke blog2 sebelumnya. Banyak tentang cinta2an ho oh.
Kalo ke post2 earlier ke 2010an or 2009an, bisa liat betapa ababilnya gw.
Apa lah saya ini, hanya manusia biasa. Manusia biasa yg punya Tuhan yg luarbiasa sayangnya sama saya. Ihihi.

Anyway. This song basically explains almost everything.
I would never be brave enough to walk upon uncharted waters.
Let alone walking beyond the shore into the waves.

But He does!
He makes me brave!



I stand before You now

The greatness of Your renown
I have heard of the majesty and wonder of You
King of Heaven in humility, I bow

As Your love
In wave after wave
Crashes over me, crashes over me
For You are for us 
You are not against us
Champion of Heaven
You've made a way 
For all to enter in

I have heard You call my name
I have heard the song of love that You sing
So, I will let You draw me beyond the shore
Into Your grace, Your grace

As Your love
In wave after wave
Crashes over me, crashes over me
For You are for us 
You are not against us
Champion of Heaven
You've made a way 
For all to enter in

You make me brave
You make me brave
You called me beyond the shore
Into the waves

You make me brave
You make me brave
No fear can hinder now 
The love that made a way

You make me brave
You make me brave
You called me beyond the shore
Into the waves



YES! No fear can hinder now, the love that made a way.
Night peeps :)
You are loved.


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