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Day 9

Yelloww darlings!

Today I waved my assistant goodbye ._.
But other than that, today was a calm uneventful one.


During my quite time today, gw tertempelak.
....

Once every now and then from beginning of the year, I asked God this question,
'What else, God?'
Not in the sarcastic, cocky way.
But more like, 'What else do You want me to do?'
'Because if You say 'go' I will go to wherever You ask me to.'

Even the 1st sentence on my devotional has seized my attention up.
Have you ever wanted to 'freeze' a moment and make it last a lifetime?
And I'm like, WELL YESS!

Basically, I was reminded by today devotional how some people (like me), avoid changes.
In fact, if I could just choose a moment and live there forever, I would.
But then, 'When it comes to change, we have a decision to make.
Change is a sign of growth and life and is sometimes needed simply to survive'
I think these kind of 'changes' is more about getting rid of destructive habits and lifeless traditions and any kind of thing that hold you down from running towards God.

Hal yang membuat gw tertempelak was when I read about Israelites who's about to reach Promised Land, but there's this huge river stands between them and the land.
And none of them knows how to cross.
After a painful dreadful 40 yrs, a river stand in between.
But as mentioned in Joshua 3, the priests carrying the Ark (tabut perjanjian) came to the edge of the river and stepped into the water, the water upstream stopped flowing.
It stood up in heap. So the people could cross over.

I was reminded of my question to God.
What else, God? Where else?
And when He kept quite, He doesn't mean that my question is not worth answering.
It's just that He wants me to take the first step of faith.
I need to come to the edge of the river and stepped into the water.
Only after that small step, THEN, He will make a way.

Notice that God did nothing until those toes touched the water.
That first step as all God needed to see.
Many times, we wont take the first step of change because we're afraid we won't be able to make the whole journey.
Don't wait until you believe it all.
Don't wait until you can see it all.
Don't wait until you understand it all.
Trust God and step out in faith. He will meet you there.

I've been asking for a breakthrough.
The thing is, it is my faith that needs one. I mean, a breakthrough.
So I could overcome my 'control issue' over changes in life and dip my toes in the water.

It's a free fall which I will need to take.
Afterall, God is there to catch me.


OK RESOLVE AGUSTUS RAPIIN CV, SEPTEMBER START CARI2 KERJAAN BARU!

Isaiah 40:31

New International Version (NIV)
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

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