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Day 2

Well hey! It's an uneventful day.
Boss, lady boss and boss assistant are not around today.
Borrowing a colleague's term, it's a non-government day lol.

But once again that's not what I intended to blog.
Udah lah pake indo aja males mikir lol.

Anyway.

There are 2 points I'd like to share to you (and a reminder to my future-self).

First.

I was reminded that many times I couldn't really enjoy sitting under God's presence because, well, gw kebanyakan mikir (....again).
Gw mikir kalo harusnya gw ngerasa ini, itu, harusnya nangis2, tersentuh, kesetrum, begeter, dll.
Gw diingetin sama kotbahnya Pak Harry (Hari? Herry? Hary?) Sabtu kemarin tentang speak in tongue.
Lo ngarep dibaptis Roh Kudus itu kaya begini begitu, dan honestly, itu sadar ga sadar semacem ngelimitin cara kerja Tuhan sama kita.
Kalo cara Tuhan nyembuhin orang di Alkitab aja beda2, kenapa cara Dia menyatakan Roh Kudusnya itu harus cuman semacem doang?
Yaudah intinya.
I realize that many times I couldn't just sit down, still, enjoying His presence, because gw ada some kind of expectation that if I didn't feel this or that, or ga ada some kind or revelation or nangis2 dll, means I'm not under His presence.
I'm unintentionally put His work under a limit.
And this brought me to the point that my personal time with Him is no longer exciting for me.
Maybe in corporate kalo worship bareng2 gw bisa superexcited, tp kenapa kalo personal time kok ga?
And now I got it.
It is my limited expectation of His work that is truly limiting myself from enjoying the entire of Him.

I was reminded that even with a close friend of mine, there are times when we don't feel like talking.
(I don't know about extroverts, but the introverted me do have some times where silence is all that I want)
We just seat opposite or side by side each other, doing our stuff individually.
A comfortable silence. Just enjoying each other's presence.
So does with God.
Just because we don't do the 'curhat' part, doesn't mean that I'm not under His presence.
Well maybe He just wanna sit beside me and enjoying our quality time together :)


The second thing is this verse :

Philippians 4:8

Amplified Bible (AMP)
8 For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

If our body is the temple (house) of the Holy Spirit, then we need to make sure that our heart is a nice place for Him to stay.

I was reminded of the awful house viewing a year ago.
We're looking for a new place and I remember this place, a 3 bedrooms units that seems normal from the outside.
But when we entered ...langsung nyesel buka sepatu seriusan itu kacau banget dah.
The agent told us that there were 6 MALE foreign students living together for 3 consecutive years.
Really really indescribably KACAU.
Gw ga lebay serius.
Toleransi gw terhadap kejorokan udah tinggi banget di atas cewek2 pada umumnya, housemates can testify on my behalf.
Suffice to say, there's a dead cockroach di lantai dapur dan waktu students2 lewat, they just walked pass like nothing actually telentang nearby their feet.
So I couldn't really guess how long that thing lie like that without anyone bother to pick it up. Err.

Anyway.
Just got reminded that maybe the same things happen inside the room of our hearts.
Maybe our heart is full of mess, or dirt, or (amit amit seriusan) dead cockroach.
Eww much.
The worst thing is when we know that something is not right, but we choose to ignore all the mess and just walk pass, don't bother to put any effort to 'tidy' things up.
Jangankan Holy Spirit, gw aja yg bisa idup di hutan Sulawesi (dulu sih) GA TAHAN tinggal disana brosis.
I don't know what kind of mess or unfinished business you hide there inside your heart.
But what I know is, I need to start think of and ONLY of those that is TRUE, WORTHY OF REFERENCE, HONORABLE, JUST, PURE, LOVELY/LOVABLE,  KIND, WINSOME, GRACIOUS. Anything with VIRTUE and EXCELLENCE.
Sorry for the caps. Just wanna make sure my future-self take note of those key-words lol.




Nite nite, peeps. You are loved :)





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