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10 THINGS I'VE FIGURED OUT ABOUT MYSELF WHEN I GET OLDER

A few weeks ago, WW asked me to do this post.
She posted one on her blog already.
Well, I thought it would be an easy-peasy task to list down 10 things that you figured out about yourself.
But apparently, it took me 2 weeks to actually complete it.

So here goes.
Enjoy =)



10 THINGS I'VE FIGURED OUT ABOUT MYSELF WHEN I GET OLDER


1. I'm no workaholic

Pas jaman kuliah dulu, housemate2 pernah menganalisa gw.
Mereka bilang sy adalah yg most likely bakal jd macam wanita2 workaholic abis kerja nanti.
Well, sy jg dulu ngerasa begitu hahaha.
Gw tipe yg kalo kerja ga bs separo2. Terus lumayan perfectionist.
Tipe yg jaman SD aja bisa kena sakit maag krn ga lunch buat bkin majalah dinding (penting bgt).
Tapi setelah gw masuk ke dunia kerja, my point of view completely change.
I am working to live, not living to work.
You are super-duper-blessed when you love your job, and you enjoy your everyday's life at the office, and that your colleague is also your good friend, and your boss is kind and even sometimes, entertaining. LOL.
Tapi gimana pun jg, satu hal yang ga akan pernah berubah...


2. Family comes first

This is one of the value that is emphasized by my father.
Waktu ABG dulu, gw ngerasa ga suka. Ga free gitu. Namanya jg anak muda.
Gw pengen 'hang-out' bareng temen2, knp harus tiap weekend kemana2 jalan sama papa mama n si Febe?
...and now I'm really grateful for those times.
Basically, sooner or later we will grow up, and eventually, out of our parent's house in a flash.
So, just enjoy it all while you can, bro and sis.
Eventually, you'll be leaving your comfort den to the wild wide world out there.
I once heard that a smart person learns from their past experience,
but a smarter one learns from others'.
I am not one (yet), but I have learned a lot from my parents.
It is true, that no parents are perfect. But I'm here to say that through all the imperfections, God's love works perfectly.
Kemarin ada om2 pendeta (saya lupa siapa), tp dia bilang, 'The only way to protect your children from all evil of the world, is to raise them in the fear of the Lord'
Couldn't agree more, Om.


3. Once a bookworm.....

Always a bookworm!
Selama gw di SG ini, kurang lbh udah 100 buku yg gw beli.
Banyak yg udah gw balik Indo, bbrp terpaksa dibuang soalnya no space and bukunya jg yg $10 for 3 hahaha.
Waktu kecil gw punya ambisi (kecil2 punya ambisi cuy) to have my own library.
Dan waktu gw pindah rumah, gw dikasih 1 ruang untuk diisi buku.
Target gw, sebelum kuliah harus penuh semua itu rak.
Singkatnya, mission accomplished. Yes.
The sad thing is, di SG super limited space. Gw jd males beli buku. Drpd dibuang..
Mau beli Kindle tp takutnya susah order buku, kan harus dr Amazon.
Tp pengen... Ada yg mau beliin? LOL.


4. Never say never

No. I'm not about to sing JB's song lol.
Back then, gw suka banget ngomong 'gw sih ga bakal....' dengan penuh keyakinan.
Dan seriously, back then gw opinionated bgt. Banyak pendapat gitu (red: sotoy).
Dan dengan pedenya gw bakal membagikan pendapat gw seluas2nya.
Tapi seiring berjalannya waktu, gw sadar kalo 'gw sih ga bakal...' itu biasanya circumstantial. And really. People change.
Contoh. Waktu SMA gw blg, 'Gw sih ga bakal deh make-up2 catokan gitu. Rempong bgt'
Nyatanya?
Contoh laen, 'Gw sih ga bakal demen cowo pke baju pink'
Mungkin krn gw emang ga demen sm pinky stuff ya. Tapi ga semua cowo jelek kok kalo pke baju pink...... Jangan salahkan bajunya. Salahkan yg pake.
LOL.
Ada lagi nih. 'Gw sih ga bakal deh beli tas...'
Ok stop.


5. Puppies vs babiessss

I was convinced that there are 2 types of person in this world.
Vanilla. Or chocolate.
Puppies. Or babies.
Udah tau kan kejadian gw nanya nyokap, 'Ma, gmn kalo aku ga sayang sm anak aku nanti'
Why? Because gw ga demen bayi.
Ok lah! I once a baby myself. I know.
Tapi tetep aja, kalo pas di pesawat dan lo mau bobo, and ada 2 bayi yang suaranya kaya alarm maling, emang kamu ga gondok?
Or kalo ada anak kecil mau dibeliin mainan, sm maminya ga dikasih, terus dia guling2 di rumput sambil jejeritan, emang kamu mau jd mami tersebut?
Jd, sekarang?
Now I believe that if I can order a mixed chocolate and vanilla ice cream, then I am able to love both puppies and babies. Bwkakaka perumpamaan yang aneh.



6.  Gimme greentea

..anytime anywhere anyhow. LOL.
Green tea icecream, green tea cakes, green tea snacks, green tea flavored soap.
Anything berbau2 greentea, I'll lovvvee it instantly.
Semakin berbau greentea, semakin suka. Dulu kayanya ga gini2 amat.
Seriously, if I need to choose between chocolate and vanilla,
I'll choose green tea. Bwkaka ga nyambung.



7. Writing is therapeutic

I wasn't aware of this until recently.
Sebenernya udah dari lama saya suka nulis. Dulu pas jaman SMP suka bikin cerpen2.
Tapi saya merasa EYD itu overrated LOL. Jadi ga bs terlalu ekspresif karena dibatasi aturan.
Then a few weeks ago I found 2 of my diaries when I was packing up my stuff.
Ya bs dibaca di sini.
Shortly, I just realized that writing is one of my forte to express out an 'excess' of emotion.
Wah, coba saya ada sample surat cinta buat kalian liat. Behhhh. Bak pujangga, kawan. LOL.
Well, firstly, I write for myself. But then, I start to write for others too.
Firstly, I write to make myself feel better. To let go.
But then when I realize that there's too much that God's given to me, well, maybe it's time for me to give it back to those in need.
Kalo ga 'dapet' dr share2an saya, mungkin dapet hiburan. Not bad lah..


8. I don't wanna go back there

Yes. I never intended to go back to Indonesia.
Ok lah. Jangan rajam gw sebagai antinasionalis dulu wkwk.
Maybe some of you know that I went to Singapore, not only to study, but to flee.
Singapore was not even my first choice, you know.
But as I mentioned on my previous posts, God works wonders.
And His way are waaaaaaay above mine.
Well, now I feel like home here. Even better. I know this is my home.
But does it mean I won't be coming back to Indo?
Honestly, gw ga tau.
Gw ga tau gw bakal di mana taun depan, or 5 taun dari sekarang, or 10 taun.
Well, I got plan. That's why I'm applying for PR.
Tapi gw percaya. Wherever He send me to, THAT place will be my home, too.
Kalo Tuhan kasih gw cowo yg kerja di Afrika juga gw bakal happily go there.
Tapi kalo bisa jgn Afrika lah. Ausi, Eu. Yah.. Kalo bisa.....
Indo enak sih makanannya. Jd kl mslnya gw for good, mungkin salah satunya krn faktor makanan wkwk.


9. I'm not afraid of cockroach

..or cicak or tikus or grasshoppers or worms or other stuff yg biasanya bikin cewek2 (dan beberapa cowok, admit it) shudders.
Dulu gw merasa ini adalah salah satu kelemahan.
Lah kok aneh? Ga takut malah merasa lemah?
Iya lah! Gw jadi merasa apakah gw bukan cewek tulen?
Apakah kadar ke-cewek-an gw cuman 90% saja?
Gw kan juga pengen teriak2 naik ke atas bangku terus nangkring disana sampe ada cowok gentleman yg bersedia mencomot kecoak nyasar itu.
Ibarat kaya Rapunzel, I wanna be rescued. Behh!
Yaa sekarang baru kerasa sih, this helps me a lot. It comes in handy.
Bayangin, satu rumah kalo ada apa2 pasti nyari saya. Kecoak? Cicak? Lipan? Kutu loncat?
Bahkan pernah deh gw dibangunin buat ngusirin cicak di kamar mandi.
Mungkin cicaknya cuman mau ngaso? Chillax lah girls.
Downside dari ketidaktakutan saya adalah kalo ada kegiatan bebersih yang melibatkan sisa makanan, rambut2 rontok, dan seribu hal (yang menurut mereka) menjijikan, gw pasti yang kena.
Oh welllll..


10. Tough outside, gooey inside

..for example, Kinder Bueno, Godiva. You know.
That type of chocolate that looks solid and tough. But when you bite it, all the goo come out.
Ok lah. Not 'goo'. It must be something sweet like liquid syrup or something.
What I'm trying to say is.
I was a Kinder Bueno before.
I look all tough and ceplas ceplos. But inside, I felt lost and didn't belong anywhere.
I was a secretive emo. I got emo easily. I got insecure every time I met new people because I'm afraid of their opinions.
I joked all the time, but really, all I wanted was to belong. To be loved.
And well, I found it. Temporarily.
Well, now I'm more nutty inside.
Err I mean, tougher inside hahaha.
I might look less tough, (mungkin masih ceplas ceplos) but I stop worrying or feeling insecure once I realized how precious I am on my Father's eyes.
The measure of my worth is no longer on what people think of me.
But it is on how BIG and WIDE and DEEP His love is. He came looking for me, find me in my hiding place, call me 'His beloved', even after what I've done is just being the selfish me.
And the measure of my toughness is not on how I act or how I speak, but on how much I can rely on Him everyday of my life. Because when I walk with Him, even through the roughest storm, I know I am safe and sound.


Oke deh sekian dulu. Saya ngantuk sekali.

Oh one more thing.

TGIF, God's beloved!!




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