it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

Still the same dream about you and me. It's like I was watching us from afar, odd. Old movie liked, the pictures blurred here and there. But then I touched the screen, and I could talk to you. I could TALK to you! Say, I've been missing you a lot. Though I hate to admit it. This was the part when I knew I was dreaming. When I touched your face in tears and whisper.. "So sorry. In the end we're going to miss out on each other anyway.." You understood. And that's all I could say to you because then my time's over. I stared at the pictures once more. I saw you held me in your arms. You knew the truth all along.. Did you? Still you say, forever.

I was bored to the bone =_= It's only been 3 days since I've been here. Home. Jakarta, Indonesia. Metropolitan, cosmopolitan city. Blargh. Who am I kidding.. I admit I got a bit cranky these days. I haven't been accustomed to the slower motion of people here. Kinda miss quick paces in Singapore where everything and everyone seems move toward wherever they are going quickly. Okay so now I'm in my mom's office (Indonesian Stock Exchange Building, right opposite Pasific Place Mall) To cut the story short, I've been staring at my bb helplessly. Wtf, I was in 30th story here AND I got no signal?? (see, cranky. LOL) Didn't know what else to do, I plugged my bb to the laptop. Surprised by how many pictures of FOOD I've taken in 2 short months. These are foods I frequently eaten at Singapore. _____________________________________________________ Main Course I love ramen. I lovelovelovelove just love ramen. LOL Tampopo Ramen at 313 on Somerset ( Original Kyushu R...

Yesterday, Elsa, Kelyn, Nana, Stanley, Edwin and I went to Pulau Ubin. At first I was kinda reluctant to go there since I already went there with my cell group mates about a week ago. The stiffness from my overexercised muscles has barely disappeared. On top of that, many of my friends couldn't make it. Either they had another plan, or had gotten home to Indonesia. LOL But then I think, why the hell NOT. I'm going home in less than one week anyway. Why don't give ourselves a good trip to remember before :) So I agreed to be waken up early (can hear birds twittering) at 6am. ______________________________________________ After making ourselves sandwiches and bread with Nutella, we took MRT from Clementi to Pasir Ris (such a looong way to go). Then we continued by bus to Changi pier. There were thick clouds and even drizzle when we're waiting for the bus. I prayed all the way for the weather gotten better for us later. We arrived safely at the pier, and it's not crowd...

Just found this song on YouTube last night. My house mates and I were sick of studying so we started talking about old songs. This one was from my early junior high period. I remember a boy I liked gave me compilation of his favorite song (some gift, huh? kids.. LOL) Anyway, back then I love LOVE this song so much, though I didn't understand one single word of the lyrics. Then I realize, HEY, somehow I still like this song :) Enjoy. I Googled the translation and found one.. (Though I think they made it sound cheesy LOL) _____________________________________________________ The first time, I saw your smile like you were an angel that came from the sky You took away all my long depressions You were kind, my shining star, my full moon that has been my guiding light. But why did you make my heart sadden? You made me hurt, covered me in tears left me in the dark, with no way out~ But I loved you more, so very much more And now you are out of my arms I still love you, And I miss you So p...

Today I caught a glimpse of you.. I don't know is it the sun.. Is it the angle of the shadow.. Or a trick of sight.. Or maybe, just, maybe.. It's just me, missing you. As I waiting for the elevator.. A thousand what if-s echoing in my head. What if it's you. Waiting for me. Tell me that somehow, we could be happening. What if it's you. Needing me. For restless night without me by your side. What if it's you. Wanting me. Like a pair of wings, you and I were inseparable. What if it's you. Loving me. Said you are, and you'll always will. What if it's not the elevator I'm waiting for.. It's you. But here's the truth. It's bittersweet, our love. Too sweet I never wanna changed a thing. Too bitter I should know sooner or later it kills. Guess it's true that some people walk in and out of our life, and in the process they left their footprints on our heart, changed us forever, once and for all. Sing me a song baby.. It might be someone else...

I'm indifference with the title of this post. 'Out of Nowhere' or 'Blogging with Rage' I don't think both can capture my message here. Oh well.. Let's go with 'Out of Nowhere' then. Whatever. Okay, so it happened last night. In the middle of my beauty sleep. OUT OT NOWHERE. I dreamed about you. Argh! I can't elaborate further. All I can say, in my dream, I'm beyond happy. We're beyond happy. We're perfect. Then I woke up. Sweaty. With a stab of pain on my chest. Was it me that stopped breathing? Or is it my heart ceased beating? I swear, swear, swear I haven't thought about you for AGES. (now I sound like a whinny hormonal teen =_=) Okay, not that long. But still. I haven't heard from you for AGES. And I really don't care. Really. I shouldn't be, right? I can recall countless sleep more than a year ago. When a night without dreaming about you, or simply without dreaming is a bless. Because then I didn't have to cry...