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Greater Than Life

When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.
Psalm 56:3










Ok so.
The roller coaster ride game is still going strong.
(Meaning I'm still alive and well in this journey with God. So. Yeah wkwk)


Last week, around this time of day.
I was in the office, working. Just another normal day.
When out of nowhere, I had this uneasy feeling which urged me to 'recharged'.
When this kind of thing happens, I usually go for the Podcasts, or simply plugging myself to songs, or scrolling through some articles.
So I've decided to read through my daily devotion.And what I've read gripped my heart and took hold of my full attention that God was about to reveal His heart out.
And yes.
Wow.


I spared you the detail for some other day when I can fully SHOUT IT OUT FROM THE ROOFTOP.
But yes. He has just made a promise. Again.
Not just a promise.
It's an assurance I never thought I needed.
That what He has begun will be made to pass.


It was so.. out of nowhere. So unpredictable.
So heart-wrenching (in a good way wkwk) I would never forget how I gotta pretend of having a sudden flu attack wkwkwkwkwk.


One day. One day I will tell you the greatness of His work.
One day.


But if you ask me where I am right now while in the waiting..


I'd say that I'm in the sea full of doubt.
Because God's promise is always beyond what these human minds can conceive.
I once told R..
"I may have doubt for many things..
But I won't ever doubt God."


So yeah.
The only thing that keep me for drowning (sea of doubt, remember?) is His loving hands that carry me through the deepest water.
So while in the waiting.. I will tell my soul to be still, knowing that God is still that same all-powerful, all-sovereign God.
The struggle is real, people. The struggle is real. Hahah.
But His daily provision of strength, joy, and hope is even more real.


So while in the waiting, I will fix my eyes over and over again, to the One that holds His promise.
I have decided to lay down what I once held so dear so that I could hold on to Him.
Just Him.


4 “You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you. 
Mathew 5 MSG






Thank you for the Love, Father.
Your love is greater than life.

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