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Just finish unpacking my stuff. There goes Bali trip. Time flies.
Seems like it's just yesterday when we heard about this company trip and that we had to register before the due date.
Now the 3 days is over.
Well. But I'm glad I'm home now :)

It's funny, right?
Things happened.
Just a few days ago everything was nice and safe and so ordinary.
I turned it all around in one night.
It's true, isn't it?
How a few seconds could make a great difference and separate present from the past.

My previous blog? I finally did it.
Something that I've been thinking about now and then.
This battle I thought I never won because I just DON'T WANT to.
Because it's easier to STAY then LEAVE.
It's true, when you fight your battle on your knees, you see amazing things happened.
I don't know how I got the strength and courage to do so.
Somehow, I did it. Talked it all out, though I kept shivering while doing it.

Many times this voice telling me to stop because what I'm about to do is stupid.
And that this was what I need therefore to let go means I'm hurting myself.
Or like, you can do this later because now is not the right time.
But there will be no right time for it, right?

If you think this was easy for me, well.. You couldn't be more wrong. LOL.

You know the kind of feeling when you had a superlong hair for superlong time.
And one day you decided to turn a new page and cut it short.
Then the next day you unconsciously run your hand through your hair and it's not there.
Weird, right?
Yep, that kinda feeling.
Like when I was suddenly 'appointed' to be a tour guide in charged of 20 persons and I wanna tell you and said WHAT A DAY but I couldn't.
Or when I saw the clock and see it's past midnite and wondering if you stayed back working.
You keep seeping through my mind. From time to time.

The last thing I wanna do is hurt ppl. Let alone those I love.
But that's the thing in life.
You couldn't always get what you want because human tends to be greedy and keep taking things for granted, aren't we?

I admit it's not the best kind of goodbye.
But if this is the kind of process we need to go through to grow,
well, I'll take this highway.
You know we need to grow up, right?
Even if we grow up separately. Haha.

Okay I'm sleepy and tired and these eyes are just puffy. LOL.

Here's a song that keeps me on walking even when I feel like lying down and stop.
It reminds me that before I love, I was first loved.
I AM loved.
Therefore, I have hope. That everything will be alright.



Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith could be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour


Good night, Beloved :)

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