it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

"So let go, my soul, and trust in Him.. The waves and wind still know His name" ON REPEAT RIGHT NOW lol. This week was such a roller coaster ride hahaha. And in every ups and downs, God is always present. So tangible! Yesterday I reread some of my blog entries, and found myself encouraged by what I've written myself lol. It's like some kind of spiritual map: the point where everything started compared to where I am standing right now. So much grace! So much love :') And before the hectic holiday tomorrow, I have to write everything down before the details forgotten. Yesterday during TLG service, my cici yang suka komen2 di blog eke hello! shared something about walking habitually with God. It's our choice to synchronize our hearts with Him from time to time. And one of the verse she quoted yesterday was Amos 3. I think nobody really jot this verse down, it's only mentioned once followed by the free dancing lesson lol ci! Best! But ...

Sometimes God met you in a very least expected moments. And I think that is the reason why there's never a dull moment with Him. Ups. Downs. But definitely not dull lol. It's been a busy weekends. Febe was here for her birthday :) Nana was here. I got to meet Kelyn's little newborn awww so precious :')  And most of all, I've shared many things to many people. God's thing. The journey and the process. And His promises! But now I'd like to hit PAUSE and take a breather. It's easy to write about things that are obviously beautiful. Or when things are resolved. Or when your prayer is answered. And when the storm is over. But He has just reminded me of something that is humbling and at the same time.. Terrifying lol. A few hours ago, my sister informed me that she would stay with her friends. Again. Lol yes I am a jealous sister. I know I've been busy. But I've arranged my other activities around my sister's plans. I...

SO! I don't know where to start. But I certainly could say that THIS is not the end. God is not done yet. In fact, earlier today I was discussing things with Ijah and we both agreed on something : we are on an accelerated roller coaster ride. Faster than ever! Higher than we ever been before! There are milestones in life. Like moments when you graduated uni, or when your PR is approved. When you moved overseas or going back for good. Moments that marked a change in the season of life. But there are other kinds of moments : intangible, but leaving marks so deep your brain might let go but your soul never will. And last week was THAT kind of moments. A series of events that, combined together, was just.. Well. I couldn't find A WORD to describe it best. But I would try my best to re-tell the story. Here goes. (Beware. It's gonna be long) I was considering a one day leave, a half-day plus another half-day, or simply a 2 days leave to attend Empowered21. If you...