it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

Today during main session worship, God asked me a question that made me go, “What? I don’t get it. What are you trying to say??” HAHAHA tbh it’s not that I don’t get what He’s saying.. It’s just that I don’t understand why He asked me that, “Ke, from now on, you can stop praying for AB and start praying for Indonesia.” I mean.. Does that mean I should move on and forget what He’s doing with AB? I wrestled about it a bit, but yielding gets easier and easier with each ‘funny request’ of my Father. So I told Him, “Ok Papa. I trust your heart.” But the next second, another thought came, “But Papa. You know I’ll think about him. And when I think about him, of course I’m gonna talk to You about him and isn’t it the same thing as praying for him? I mean I might not write down my prayer like what I’m doing right now. But still. How can I not praying for someone I love?” I heard Him chuckled. “Exactly.” Once again, I am amazed by His genius. With one sentence, He revealed what’s hidden in my he...

It’s 1AM in Redding, CA. I should’ve been asleep by now. Or at least doing one of the 2 homework that is due in 8 days HAHA. But my heart knows that I need to do this now. Now, before I lose heart. It’s been a while since God’s nudging me to write this one particular aspect of my adventure down and I kept delaying and delaying. I feel God’s saying, “Now, Kezia, now. Declare My promises now. Now is a crucial time. Now is the turning points that leads to an entirely new future. It’s crucial that you partner with Me now. Declare My promises now.” So here goes. This is me walking on water. November last year, I was sitting cross-legged on my bed. Talking to the Father. I remember struggling about my heart posture every time I was exposed to a new aspect of revival that was SO  BEYOND my box. I was struggling with comparison and the pressure of having to sound or look like anyone else when encountering Him. But He talked to me about something else entirely. “Are you sure you TRULY BELIE...