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Azik. These past weeks I have learned about the sovereignty of our God. Sovereignty - Wikipedia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sovereignty Sovereignty  is understood in jurisprudence as the full right and power of a governing body to govern itself without any interference from outside sources or bodies. In political theory,  sovereignty  is a substantive term designating supreme authority over some polity. It all starts with a promise. God promised something that I never even thought about. I was in the midst of battling something in prayer, but He revealed something else. AH SUSAH GW GA BISA NGMG DULU. Not yet. Intinya, what I prayed about was answered with something entirely different. He gave me a promise that I never even dare to ask hahaha. And the biggest hindrance while waiting on His promise to be fulfilled is.. well, basically, myself. I doubt. From time to time He gave me glimpses and assurance to keep me going, but along ...

17  Though the fig tree does not bud      and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails      and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen      and no cattle in the stalls, 18  yet I will rejoice in the  Lord ,      I will be joyful in God my Savior. (Habbakuk 3:17-18) So last weekend I asked Him, "Search my heart, God." I was in good terms with God. Or so I thought. Because last week He unveiled the depth of my heart. He shed the light and I couldn't hide. I chose to confront myself. And God graced me with strength. The first thing I was made aware of was my doubt. I doubt myself. I know that I am here because this is where He led me to. But could I do what He asked me to do? There's a fear of disappointment that seize my heart. So sudden and so heavily laid on my shoulder, I gotta stop doing what I was doing and called out to my...