it's not a diary. it's a JOURNAL

I can't believe it's JULY in a few hours! Okay I don't know how many times I wrote this, but I'm just amazed by how time FLIES! Feels like it's just passed new year. That time I was in Jakarta. Happy and oblivious that I'd fell sick at the very day that I'd been looking forward super-excitedly... Okay. Don't go there. Don't go there. Remember the door. Door. Door. Okay. So. Yesterday was the 2nd time I've spoken in front of TLGers. You know, I'm more like behind-the-scene person. I wasn't born and bred to be a public speaker. That's for sure. (Thank God most of the peeps is still on holiday :P) I was supposed to share about 'Who's God for me' and these days I was constantly reminded of how He brought me to Singapore and the subsequent years afterward.:) Yesterday I shared a tiny part of His grace allowed me to find a job. But I know that it happened much much much earlier. I think...

Blogging from the top bunk of my bed. Actually never planned to write anything but I just can't help it. One question that keeps popping out on my mind these days : What is it with my brain that does the exact opposite of my command? For example, I told my brain to stop remember. But what it does is just flooding itself with lots and lots of stuff that used to be so trivial, no emotion involved, yet now become a story that so significant it won't go away and even have a soundtrack of itself. Lol. See, now I'm empathising some friends whom I teased from time to time to be overly 'emo' or 'clingy'. Even to the point of ridiculously 'sad'. Well I've been judging and now I'm walking in their shoes.  Lol. I know. I know it's part of the process. And to be processed means going through tough times, leaving your safe place, rough patches. I used to answer 'A Walk to Remember' when ppl ask me my favorite...

So. Singapore. Hazy Singapore. Thanks to Indonesia. Wheee!!! Lol. (What? I'm Indonesian. But I can't say I'm too proud to be one these days. Hahah.) Makes me realize how we often take clean air for granted. Just because it's there for us to inhale freely and unlimited, we forgot how it's impossible to stay alive without it. For those who were lucky enough to never experience this, here's a brief summary of what's actually happened. Monday, 17 June. Lunchtime. Mentioning how it looks cloudy but it's still kinda hot somehow. Colleagues mentioned it's actually some kind of haze. (Haze? Okay....) Tuesday, 18 June. Lunchtime. Noticing that the haze mentioned yesterday was still there. (Haze? Still there..?) Wednesday, 19 June. Morning time. Was my glasses dirty or something with my eyes? Why all blur? Hair starts to smell like Korean BBQ. lol. People starts going out with surgical masks on. Looks kinda creepy like in some kind of vi...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEBE KINAWA PANGGUA LUMILING! My baby sister's just turned 20. Wow. WOWWW. Time flies!! It feels like yesterday when I turned 20 myself. Lol. You know that in your 20s you'd be facing lots of changes. Challenges. Important and probably, difficult decisions. Out of your comfort zone and safe cocoon. Like graduating from Uni. Then finding your first job. Then maybe, and eventually.. marriage and stuff *shuddershudder* Febe was here during the weekend. She went to FA. Just in time for special one, when The Royals met Blessed ;) Then the next day she also went to TLG Service. It's like the best of my worlds collided (in a good way haha). And (as usual) whenever my baby sister visits me here, she always demand a good service. And when I'm saying 'good service', for her that means, PLENTY of nice food. LOL. One of them is IKEA meatball. With or without horse meat, they're still the be...

I called today "AWESOME TUESDAY" Why? Because Tuesday supposed to be an ordinary day. Always come after Monday, the most dreaded day of the week. Only treated as some kind of stepping stone towards Wednesday, for if Wednesday passed, that means we've passed half of our week already. Hahaha. If days were a movie character, Monday must be some kind of big boss villain, while Tuesday is always some kind of side-kick bad guy. Okay. Why today's awesome? First of all, I'm looking forward to watch Now You See Me. Hoo haa! Saw the trailer and it looks great. I heard some said the plot was quite unpredictable. To add to the excitement, managed to close 4 accounts when actually I'm not as kiasu as last month. (What is kiasu? Kindly look it up on Singlish dictionary bahaha) And yes. Now You See Me was really something. I think it's the best non-action movie so far in 2013. The ending was not  bad either. Definitely not the kind of ann...

So..... Long time no blog. I guess it's not THAT long. But so many things happened in between. Kelyn's bachelorette. Wedding. Woghh. It was.. crazily hectic. Happy for you my best best friend :):) Okay. Taking a breather, or two..  Then more things happened. Good things, bad things. It's a bit like in roller coaster ride, my life these days. It's.. A kinda long story. Maybe someday, when it's all over, I'll write a narration. Suffice to say, it's something I can't push out to the corner of my mind, even if I try hard to. I've written lots of things about love and heartbreak. (It's not like got it a lot, you know. Heartbreak, I mean. LOL. Just to clarify) I can't say I'm a master of heart matters. But I have a fair share of.. cases. LOL. I know how it feels to stumble and fall and to wake up at night, crying. I know how it feels to sleep and reluctant to be awaken because reality sucks. LOL. It ...